It will be 5 weeks on Monday since my ablation for SVT and just wanted to let you all know how I’m getting on.
Firstly the physical stuff, thankfully I have had no more sustained episodes of SVT since the first week. I continue to have daily short runs of fast heart rate that feels like SVT but lasts no more than a minute. Im still having ectopics but these are every few days and usually connected to when I’ve just eaten. I also have strange beats that feel like little bursts of energy, very difficult to describe. I feel like my heart is still very sensitive and all my original triggers like my menstrual cycle,eating and over excitement are still my triggers but my heart try as it might can’t descend into chaos anymore. It really does feel like it is trying really hard to kick off.
Now the emotional stuff, I feel like I am changed by my experience, I feel like I am trying to get to know a part of my body that has been altered. I am now non medicated after 12 years and as much as this is the “ultimate goal” it has been quite challenging. It’s just me and my naked scarred heart and I’ve gone from knowing how it feels on the good days and the bad to having to get to know how it responds now and not be afraid. The thing with ablation is that for me it hasn’t stopped all the things connected to the arrhythmias it’s just stopped them from being able to happen. So I still get the feelings but it doesn’t develop. After 30 years it is no wonder it is taking me a bit of time to be able to adjust to this difference.
I am aware that for some people this is just not the case and ablation doesn’t have this kind of impact on them emotionally but I really wanted to share how I’ve felt here just in case anyone does feel like this. Someone wrote an update this morning about how they just felt “different” and that prompted me to write this update because that summed it up for me so perfectly. I just feel different, it’s quite a neutral feeling, neither negative or positive. Of course I am grateful that I am recovering well and Medically everything is going to plan, I’m sure my EP will be thrilled with my progress when I see him. Physically I feel so much better than I did in the first few weeks but emotionally I’m not there yet, I still feel like it can come and get me, I don’t fully believe it’s gone. I’m still learning how this modified heart deals with stuff and I’m trying to find the new edges.
It’s been a very long journey for me as it is for most people with this condition and recovery from the ablation means a lot more for some than just the return to physical fitness.
So that’s where I’m up to almost 5 weeks in. To summarise, I’m extremely glad I had the ablation, I’m recovering well physically , I’m slowly recovering my confidence, I’ve found it tough emotionally, I’m still trying to be patient and kind to myself, I accept it’s early days and I will be forever grateful that I found a place like this where I can write down how I feel and get advice and support day or night. 😊