I'm new to this forum and in just a few days have learned more than I have in 5 years of dealing with AF with 2 EPs and a cardiologist here in the US. Thank you to the many kind and helpful people who have posted here. A major reason I have learned so much is the spirit of kindness and generosity that is so evident here.
I had a vague memory of Dr. Gupta's videos in various internet searches, but thanks to the advice of a poster here, I went back to explore Dr. Gupta's YouTube channel. I learned more in his 15-minute video on Vagal AF than I have from any of my doctors. I still have yet to learn if my EP will even acknowledge that it exists, as he has already told me that he doesn't think it's possible to attribute episodes to anything in particular.
What I really like about Dr. Gupta's approach is that he explains rather complicated heart matters in more simplified English. He's actually a good teacher and his kindness and compassion come through in these videos. I'm a teacher myself and so recognize and appreciate good teaching when I see it.
Because I found the video so helpful, and he says he really enjoys hearing from his subscribers, I wrote him a thank you email. I was amazed to see a lovely reply from "Sanjay" in my inbox this morning. I'm a complete stranger; he's not even my doctor!
In contrast, I managed to get the courage to email my EP yesterday to tell him what I've learned about Vagal AF and to say that I'd like to go off of Metoprolol because in the few days I've tried lowering my dose, I have felt infinitely better. The veil of depression lifted.
While I recognize that docs are busy people and respect that, Dr. Gupta's response reminded me that I've developed a way of "bracing" myself in dealing with my docs, and they are actually very nice people. There's a sense in the system of needing to not bother them because they are always so busy. I've been screamed at by docs in my former EPs practice and told I "use too many resources" because I talked for longer than 10 minutes when I was trying to get answers to my questions and no one was answering them.
So to experience the kindness and graciousness of Dr. Gupta in taking maybe one minute to write me a note was quite a welcome change from communications I've had with all of my doctors here in the US.
I'm still waiting to hear back from my own EP, which will likely be a note from his nurse, and not him. I'm hoping that he will be supportive and open-minded and not dismissive about Vagal AF. We'll see what happens.