I have begun to drive on my own. I do alright as long as I have someone with me. I get spells of panic when im alone. The panic is nothing like it use to be. It's more of that subtle gut feeling that something isn't quite right even though there is no way anything is wrong and your safe.
House work has become a task. Imagine your the only house keeper of Kensington Palace and though the tasks are simple and quick in a day they end up taking you twice as long as they use to and you only have enough energy to do two hours of work. Then your down for a day before you can do it again.
My heart doctor warned me of this long ago before I had my AV node ablation. Depending on the humidity, my feet may swell or I get pressure in my chest. I sleep at night but there are now days when I need to just stay in the recliner to rest in sit up position but slightly reclined.
Most days I'm slow but I move. My Atrial fibrillation stays at 120 to 130 or 140 depending how fast I try to move. Long distance riding is ok. Long distance driving for me I can do but after 4 hours I'm tired and won't try to dive any farther.
I got to see close friends over the weekend. I spoke to my girlfriend who suffers from Dercums. I told her that all the plans we had been making to move across this beautiful country, we both have become medically unfit to pack up our homes and move hours or days away to a new home. The only way we could do it is if we were cremated and packed up with the rest of the stuff we knew and carried off. She sadly agrees. So my husband and I have decided to move closer to them so that we have good friends close by. We can rely on each other and our support groups to get through the good and bad days.
Forgive me for sounding a bit down. I promise I'm not. I'm just having symptoms of heart failure rear it's ugly head and I feel tired. I'm proud of all the things I have been doing that are good and I'm learning what my new limits are. Either way, I'm happy even if I don't sound it. Life is good to spite the bad.
Sending hugs and love to all.