My dad has another transfusion today and I haven't talked to him in over a week bc I'm struggling with my own sadness not knowing how to handle this . So I just thought I haven't spread enough support and love around here lately either and just sending you a goofy 🤪 smile bc it's all I have to give some days xoxo for always answering posts and being heroes who rock and make each other laugh, peace,love ,and healing.
Erica
Thanks for this. I think every father's greatest fear is hurting his children. I'm sure your father understands your needing a break.
Stay the course Erica, you are stronger than you know. You will look back on this and say "I did that" I know I did.
Somehow even that made me cry! I'm the worst lol
This damn cancer took my father and now has a hold on me. The experience with my father as well as my own has made me a better friend, husband and all around person. Strangely, I wouldn't change a thing. Hang tough
Oh scruffy I never knew. I'm so sorry "Wouldn't change a thing" ... What an inspiration. Ty for being you!
Thank you for the encouragement. I was feeling down when I got up, and seeing your post lifted my spirits. Reaching out to comfort others in the midst of our sadness is the greatest gift we have to give. Thank you.
Tysm these replies mean so much to me and I'm glad my smile reached you
Some days a goofy smile is all I need. Thanks! Sending one back to you @🤪.
Great to get a good vibe post. Thanks! And best to you and your loved ones
Thank you for your helpful post to us. Know that it is ultimately your Dads' doctors who know how to handle his treatment regimen. If you are concerned that he may not be in good hands, make sure he is getting second opinions.
As for you, it is absolutely normal to feel how you feel. See your primary care doctor to discuss it, and he could appropriately prescribe helpful anxiety med to help you through this.
You are a wonderful daughter and I’m glad to hear you are looking after yourself. It’s easy to only focus on your father but you need to take care of your physical and mental health as well.
Sending you a virtual hug Erica. Take breaks as you need them. Hang in there. 
God bless you and your darling Daddy you obviously love each other, and that will be greatly appreciated. And trust me we can’t be strong all the time we’re human so don’t be hard on yourself. Love to you both SheilaF xxx
Tysm. Deep depression. I feel so guilty
Erica!!! You have some nerve sending us a goofy smile....... you're supposed to send us a naked one.....Man oh Man.....That's it, it's over between us.... Send the diamond friendship ring I gave you back to me asap. Tell dear Dad he can forget buying that Tux, unless he wants to get married again...Give my ex-future father-in-law lots of hugs and kisses......Bye Bye now what am I going to do???
Good Luck, Good Health and Good Humor.
j-o-h-n Thursday 03/10/2022 10:11 PM EST
Lmfaoooooooo! I have to admit that helped. Damn it.... Not the ring... It's so shiny! Lol you're the best!
Humor really helps... a while back someone posted his answer to another bad test result... something like "yep, cancer is back. Buy me a beer" I agreed that I will be telling my brothers that very soon. I may make them come to visit me so we can go to a local micro-brewery and have their fish and chips along with it..or maybe the wood fired pizza brewery, haven't decided yet. Oh Heck, why not both. Best of luck and thanks for thinking of all of us who are also fighting this monster.... PS. my 3 daughters all support me but they may not always know the full story from me. Someday I guess I will have to fill them in, just not yet. Love You Back
I hear you. I got back into therapy after learning of my dads diagnosis to try and be able to deal with it without making him upset that I’m upset. It sucks. I hope he goes well.
I'm working on starting therapy
I basically shut down and hate myself for it.
How are you doing? X
Aww how sweet ty for asking . I'm physically in bad shape .mentally cannot sleep AT ALL but a tad better after weeks of Prozac . How about you ?
Upon losing my father , some retrospect. Take what you need and leave the rest. Sacrum bed sore ,types of pillows or wedges to get pressure off sacrum and lumbar ? Meditation?how to improve Quality of life bedridden? Dad very SICK. any treatments ANYTHING to give my dad his smile back and extend his life . I'm begging for your help in tears . 
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