New everywhere

[hamswa]

I am new here. But I feel new and unaccustomed anywhere I go. I do not understand the terrain of my mind and I could never forecast the weather of my moods. And its certainly not a comfort to know there are many people who are like me in this world. No one deserves this.

[Pianoplayer28]

Thank you for sharing! And even though you said it doesn’t bring you comfort, I too have not mastered my own mind and how my moods will serve me on a daily basis. Medication was the route for me and I’ve stopped panicking for the most part, stopped feeling spurts of depression, and stopped having night terrors. Before all that, dealing with it all was too overwhelming… to the point where I didn’t feel like I belonged anywhere. I hope you know that you are strong for being open about it.

[ayseesindurmaz]

Dear hamswa, I deeply understand what you meant. Even though what you described is very personal. For so many years, I struggled a lot. Still struggling from time to time. I think, sometimes we should enjoy having a fuzzy mind. We are sensory to daily life distracting more than normal people. For example, I tried to study all day today, could not manage it. I blame my ADHD, ı came here to check other people's opinions and struggles. To create empathy with you is more important than being angry with yourself. Do not say no one deserves this.