Yesterday's progress - the infamous drawing

[The_wOnderer]

I'll never finish it before Monday. I didn't even start coloring yet. Too bad. I'll be late, as always 😅

Yeah, perspective is more of a suggestion here, rather than a true rule. Like the pirate code

[JW621]

Wow. You are talented my friend

[The_wOnderer in reply to JW621]

Awww thanksToday no progress though. I was so anxious because I knew I wasn't going to be able to finish it, and I had a hard time accepting it. I was so tense, I easily got triggered with my ptsd and couldn't do anything the whole morning, then I gave up and did other things. The afternoon was very productive, but I didn't touch the drawing.

At this point, I thing the important thing is that the contest inspired me, and I'll keep going on without the contest pressure. Actually, a pencil drawing can require me months, it looked hard from the start to finish it in a couple of weeks. I could have done it, working a lot, but hey, I'm not even payed and I have my limits. It's OK. It will be better next time

[JW621 in reply to The_wOnderer]

Do you have adhd?

[The_wOnderer in reply to JW621]

I do. I was diagnosed last week

[JW621 in reply to The_wOnderer]

I love to see more work. Very detailed.

[witherrae]

That's good! And don't feel bad, I'm still working on my dad's Christmas present from 2019. Almost done though lol

[The_wOnderer in reply to witherrae]

That comforts me bit 😂

[acrononymous]

Gorgeous drawing! My son draws and only ever uses pencil. I think he colored one, once, to make his art teacher happy. He’s 36 and had inattentive ADHD. He never cared about the consequences of not coloring his drawings because coloring them was never his intent. He loved to draw, not color.

I don’t know why you procrastinated. We are people with ADHD, it’s what we do. But you are obviously a talented person when it comes to drawing. I wonder if there is an element you don’t enjoy that makes it hard to get started until it’s too late to finish? If it is some part of the project, like the coloring, there could be away around it.

[The_wOnderer in reply to acrononymous]

Thanks! I don't believe in my skills, so if something turns out good, I always think it's enormous luck, and I fear that everything I do from that moment on could ruin it and I won't ever be able to do something that good again. The better is coming out, the higher my expectations, the higher the fear 😅I actually love to color, but I don't want to spend that much time doing it. I could learn a faster technique, like painting 😊

[acrononymous in reply to The_wOnderer]

Just so you know I am 56 and was just diagnosed about 6 months ago.

Now I’ll tell you one thing I’ve learned that helps make life easier once you can get your head wrapped around it.

Do what you love because you love it. If you draw because YOU love to draw, then it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks. If your drawing is for yourself first, then what someone else might think is irrelevant. The only one that has to be happy with your drawing is you.

I write from time to time. I love it. I used to belong to a writer’s group and even have a degree in writing. I’ve never had a class or group where everyone loved a piece of mine that I felt good about. Most of my favorite creations were the ones that created strong reactions in others - whether of love or distaste.

If one of your drawings stirred a lot of discussion/emotion from those who saw it, that would be a success, don’t you think?

We all have our own interpretations of the world around us. We can look at the same piece of art, read the same story, watch the same news report, etc and have totally different interpretations. But it makes for interesting and thought provoking discussion.

I hope at least some of that made sense.

[The_wOnderer in reply to acrononymous]

Yeah, I know, it totally makes sense, but it's my own expectations and judgments I'm fighting with, not others'. That's the difficult part. I love writing too but I hate what I write, I always become too emotional about it and quit ideas before even starting to write sometimes, out of my own extreme judgment. I'm not that judging with others, instead, I'm a very open minded and accepting person. I think it's ptsd related. I'm used to extreme consequences and seeing people suffering greatly if I do something not right enough, and I irrationally dread doing things not right enough

[Talulahmae]

It looks great! I love the figure in the window. Making shouldn’t be a ‘have to’. Look at it as a release and a joy. I think putting the condition of the contest on it ruined it for you! We all go thru times of greater and less creativity. And I think sometimes the extra stress just kills it. Finish this fir you❤️ Can’t wait to see

[The_wOnderer in reply to Talulahmae]

Yeah, exactly. Now I have some serious tidying to do, I'll pause for a few days, and then I'll get back to it and post progress. Thanks guys, you're being so helpful 😍