Being treated for depression and anxiety but I believe it’s adhd.

[IFellItHurt]

I am a 25 year old. Female. I have always shown symptoms of hyperactivity like insomnia as a child. I have always had issues relaxing just to fall asleep. Now I’m older and depression symptoms have always been a thing but since having my son they have skyrocketed. As well as the previous anxiety I had. But I use to be able to get out more and be more active. I sort of don’t feel like I have the energy or the motivation even though I know I have the energy to. But my body does hurt. I believe the pain is fibromyalgia pain. I have restless leg syndrome? Or something along those lines at night it feels like. My pain gets worse at night or sitting still it seems though. Moving helps me tons. I don’t have an attention span. I don’t stay on task ever. I can’t complete our laundry to save my life. I have always been pretty distracted and at times I sort of showed signs of even having OCD but those didn’t stay. Aren’t severe or anything. I usually get like that when I’m going through extreme times of hyperfocus. Where I try to make sure everything is organized so I’m not losing everything. I’d lose my head if it wasn’t attached. I think that actually being treated for my adhd instead of anxiety would help me better? I think my anxiety is more so because my thoughts go so crazy. I think so much and always have. It’s not a new symptom since becoming more depressed. I always have came up with conclusions easily. I had symptoms of ODD as a teenager. Well probably couldn’t had a diagnosis. I have no emotion regulation. I have every emotion to a heightened degree and my fight or flight mode is horrendous. I didn’t really graduate high school. I went to a private faith academy school which I don’t even think really counts because I couldn’t get through real school. I failed math miserably. Although, I loved school for a long time. In elementary school I had some behavior issues but I was teachers pet most years and didn’t seem to do too bad but I also had a lot of attention from the teachers because I talked a lot. And my teachers were females so maybe that has something to do with why I did better? But in middle and high school it didn’t stay that way. So much distraction. I stayed after school, showed up early, studied with my mom and tried so hard and still failed. I’ve read a few books but only ones I was interested in. Otherwise I just fall asleep or have to reread one section so many times I can’t even understand what I’m reading. My memory is terrible and it has always been pretty poor but has got worse since becoming depressed to an extreme extent as well. I grind my teeth at night time while I sleep and notice myself clenching sometimes during the day. This was prior to being on any medication for depression or anxiety. None of these symptoms showed up after being started on treatment for anxiety or depression. I have never been on medications until about a week and a half ago. The hydroxyzine Pam they put me on seems to make my anxiety worse as the medication seems to be losing its effectiveness. My heart was racing from anxiety the other day but I’m not sure if it was much worse than normal since I started wearing my watch to monitor my heart rate after starting medications and not prior to it. I have stopped taking the hydroxyzine to monitor my heart rate during my my anxiety/panic attack episodes. What is going on? I really feel like if they would treat my adhd I would feel better. My brother is diagnosed adhd. My mom was a smoker when she was pregnant as well.

[Nick1913]

Hi I fell it hurt,

Welcome, As an ADHD person I was diagnosed last year, a bit old , but it helped explain a lot for me. I always recommend getting professional help, diagnosing is probably a good thing too. With your Mom and brother both being diagnosed? With ADHD? If so probably a safe bet that you have it also, though it’s not 100%.

Since you are seeing someone for Anxiety why not get diagnosed and make sure?

The main reason I thought it important to mention is when I was diagnosed and the meds started I kept a journal as to what I took and what happened after. It helped because I could just show it to my doctor and get my meds adjusted.... it also helped because it showed what reactions it had on me, and if I decided to stop it, when and why I did..... At first it took a little while but it was well worth the effort. Sometimes I would be asked a question and I couldn’t remember, but it was in the journal, so it was all good. Wearing the watch is an excellent idea.... for heart rate, does it keep a record of it?

Good Luck

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I have major issues falling asleep and relaxing too. People who do not have it do not realize how bad it sucks. Sleep meds have not worked for me. Its like my clock is set at 2AM to 10 AM sleep time being best but I can't do that with my work schedule