I had a lot of swelling and hip pain during my pregnancy this was put down to being pregnant. I had my beautiful little boy and took him home.
For three weeks I was in agony with swollen legs and hip pain. I was also having mini embolisms but that symptom was put down to exhaustion. I felt like I had just had him.
By the end of the third week I had lost mobility I was in agony and couldn't walk. First doctor said I had a trapped nerve in my hip and back.
My symptoms became a lot worse and not only was I unable to walk my temp was sky rocketing and I was extremely ill. To cut to the chase I was went to hospital they couldn't find the infection they thought I had. so sent me for a cat scan. The results of the scan came back and they had found I had many blood clots. In my legs, hips and stomach.
The largest clot is sitting there in my largest vein at the top of my stomach. To make things worse they found a hole in my heart so if any of the many clots wanted to travel they could go to my brain. They believe my pregnancy provoked the clots.
They had never seen anything like this. For the first three days they weren't confident I would be alive. so I have been treated like a freak show and I have been seen by over twenty different consultants. Each time I meet a new doctor they tell me how lucky I am to be alive and all the instances I could of died. Like having a natural birth.
I have been unable to walk until this week (two months later). I can't carry him or do many of the exciting things new mums do. I am on a high dose of blood thinners so I am like one big bruise my new born bopping me feels like he is Mike Tyson. I'm on very strong painkillers which allow me to walk a short distance around the house. It's going to be a long recovery.
I am very lucky for somebody who has been so unlucky. I've fought really hard to get better and being able to walk is a big thing. My son is an angel and isn't hard work. But I've had no choice but to let everybody else take over and now I feel useless and very depressed. I know I should be thankful and I am! I just feel very depressed. I know I'm very blessed to have my son.
I know I'm lucky and in some respects I feel very selfish. I do Just feel very down and teary.
Has anybody else had anything like this?