Incredibly depressed but there's some positives out of it

[Sailorsam2001]

Hi everyone,

Yesterday I was severely depressed and felt like just going to sleep and doing sod all all day as it got a bit too much. I don't really like my work situation etc and the tinnitus is probably causing this but also some feelings of being reproached by external forces such as colleagues etc which are getting me down.

I have decided to start writing poetry to cope with my frustrations (I am an avid reader and I enjoy being creative). I have spoken to my GP about getting some form of therapy as the private one I get is rather expensive!

At times I feel like giving up with everything, especially my hearing loss situation which is massively still affecting me despite being told I can get no help from NHS services. It feels like a plight rather at times. Sometimes I feel like screaming so much its just like being entrapped within a box.

I do miss the sounds I can't hear but I was a naive teenager and it probably contributed alongside other factors but still I miss the frequencies and openness shall we say of sound.

I think it has gotten worse definitely since 2020 where after a good streak I stupidly decided to use headphones and blast music. It's really annoying also as there seems to be no hard fast rule about listening to music safely. At one point I banished it but can't anymore as I miss it. It seems though that you have to just play it a level whereby you can just hear it and so it's not blasting out. It's actually better this way as it's more abrasive otherwise. Regardless, I think this career I am doing is not for me as I struggle with autism and felt I was getting no help and am so far behind with everything. I am now taking my health in a better direction by not using headphones and by wearing earplugs (filtering ones) on the tube and in cinema and traffic. I have found it calms the tinnitus most definitely.

[AldoArgentina]

I'm sorry Sailorsam2001!! Perhaps these things might help you: 1. You must keep your blood pressure low as you can and is important to control whether you snore. 2. Take Magnesium L. Threonate (Only this Magnesium!!!) 3 hours before bed. Look for information, this magnesium is really good for brains. 3. Try taking Idebenone 4. Do you know Mimicking fasting diet of Walter Longo? In Argentina there aren't doctors to guide us with this diet, perhaps you can find one. 5. Look for white noise that fits for you. 6.And finally homeopathy might help you too. I’m doing all of these and my T is going down little by little. I wish you much luck!!

[Linley]

Hi! So pleased you have found something that calms the T. For me my T has been OK today, why? Probably because my other problem has reared its ugly head and made me concentrate on that instead of T. So to take my mind of both I have been watching our Queens Platinum celebrations flat out on the sofa. Good days and bad.😁 Wish you many good days and take care

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Hi Sailorsam2001

You have a lot going on. I hope you are ok with honesty - I can be too direct, at times!

I feel for you and what you're going through and I suspect you need to tackle your work situation in order to alleviate some of your health matters.

The workplace has a duty of care towards you. I think that you need to speak to someone at your work or your doctor to talk over your health and work and how your hearing and tinnitus is affecting you. It may be you need signed off by your doctor to let things settle down and possibly explore other options? There is no shame in it. And you can repeat the doctor's fit note, obviously if you need more time.

Health comes first but sadly lots of people soldier on when work impacts on their health - often until they reach a crisis point. I think it is better to catch these situations quickly as mental health is such a fragile thing and I've seen people teetering on the brink needing help.

Step back and put yourself first.

I've developed anxiety around my hearing problems and balance disorder and it is difficult to separate them at times. The more I tell people I have problems with anxiety the easier it gets.

Labels are quite negative so I avoid saying 'I'm an anxious' person'...which has a bit of a sting! We are all 'someone with...' So you're someone dealing with autism, depression, hearing loss tinnitus and stress?

Well done for the creativity and sounding positive. That sounds really enjoyable. I love poetry. 👏 That is great the ear-plugs are helping to calm things down. 😊

I have found this site really supportive in challenging times. xx