Incredibly stressed by new job, don't know whether to just quit

I stopped working two years ago due to my Hashi's symptoms. I'm more well now than I was but still have a long way to go. I just started a new job that fits in with school hours and I'm helping people on the internet. It seems an ideal job but I am falling apart. I can't cope with the strain of a new job, learning how to do it, answering questions with the right tone, I have to find childcare during school hols for my 5 year old son, I've agreed to work 6 hours a day and I find that impossible to fit in, I feel mentally and physically exhausted by the end of the day and I have done no housework and can't cook for myself the way I know keeps me well. I find it hard to concentrate and berate myself for not doing enough work or concentrating. I feel like being busy all day every day is going to make me more sick and stop me from relaxing, exercising, eating well, starting counselling, reading self-help books. All the things I was looking forward to doing when my son started school. I feel like I have lost the chance to get well. The only reason for doing it is obviously we need the money. As well, I can't afford the supplements and acupuncture that might help me get well. And how will I ever get a better job that fits in with the school day? Even though it doesn't fit in with school hols. Now I've started it I will feel bad if I let my boss down and I feel I will embarrass her as she has just introduced me as someone who is there to help everyone. I just feel a worthless useless person who can't even do an easy at home job. I've always been excessively stressed by work. And by life in general. I am filled with anxiety and self-hatred all the time. If you are there and have any opinions, I would be glad to hear them.

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  • I'm sorry you're finding the new job stressful Tegansarah and can understand this when you are struggling with health problems.

    Looking through your posts, I notice you have two autoimmune diseases and wondered if you'd had your B12 levels tested lately?

    Many researchers believe 'leaky gut' is the ground zero of autoimmune disease - four members of our family have thyroid/B12 issues and one has lupus. They are often interlinked and symptoms overlap. Extreme fatigue and high anxiety levels are just two symptoms of PA/B12.

    In case you haven't seen them, here are some helpful links:

    b12deficiency.info/b12-writ... (List of symptoms and an excellent film)

    chriskresser.com/b12-defici...

    cmim.org/pdf2014/funcion.ph... :

    Latest BMJ research document with useful summary.

  • What blood test results have you got

    for

    TSH

    Free T4

    Free T3

    Ferritin

    Folate

    B12

    Vit D3

    ask your GP to re run them so that we can guide you through whats missing

  • Sound like you're having a really bad time. Could you possibly go part time for now? Have you got anyone who can help you with child care and housework?

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