Needing help

[Brunosmum]

I'm 29 years old, I had treatment in a private hospital when I was 18 for anorexia (but I ran out of money to fund the treatment) and thought I was coping fine but lately all I can think of is how to loose weight, what calories and meals I can cut out and apon weighing myself I found out I was 9 stone 6.5lb the same weight I did when I left treatment.

Although my husband is supportive he has PTSD due to being a army veteran. My son and family mean the world to me but I feel guilty every time I get close to 1000 calories a day ( average of 700-800 per day) and now work out more to burn the excess off. I feel really stuiped as I'm training to be a recovery psychologist but I can't admit that I'm not practicing what I preach.

Please say you can help me I can't do this alone

[crazycrossstitcher]

EDs are not a problem to be dealt with alone - and it doesn't matter you understand psychology - when its yourself its so hard to apply the knowledge as EDs take over the mind completely. Clearly 1000 cals or less is not a healthy diet and exercising on top is going to compound your problems. Go to the GP and ask for a referral to an ED specialist - they are available on the NHS - but the wait is often a long one (took me over 6 months and have only just got to a dietician - the counselling still hasn't started - so its going to be nearly a year without support). ABC are also very helpful - phone their helpline - often very busy to keep trying - also you can send an email and they'll respond - they also have befrienders and I found them really supportive and helpful to keep me on the right track while waiting for an appointment - but please do seek help - EDs are not something that go away by themselves and clearly you still have some issues to be looked at which are behind this re-emergence of your problems. We all feel guilty telling loved ones - but telling my mum was both the hardest and the most helpful thing I ever did - telling my husband was also hard (which I did when he asked me to marry him as I wanted him to realise what he was taking on) - but it too was a good thing - although he doesn't understand he is aware of my struggles and when he notices my meals shrinking or my weight dropping he does encourage me to get back to my support network.

[Sammy987]

Hi my lovely. I am 31 . I don't have children yet and havnt been in an inpatient hospital as I've always tried recovery alone with the support from my family and friends. I've come the furthest in recovery than I ever have and I think it's down to finding out what I really want in life, which is a family . I would love to help you in your journey. Im not professional but I have had some amazing advise and support..and it was actually from an incredible woman I met on here. I deep down believe if it wasn't for her I wouldn't be where I am today . I always said I'd like to do the same for others in future. You have to really want recovery for yourself tho my lovely as people can't fix you. Message me If you want as I happy to share my journey and hopefully help with yours xx

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