It's just getting too much

[Jade27]

Recently everything is just spiraling out of control and its just taking a massive toll on everything I do. I really want to speak to someone about this but I can never find the courage to do so in person. Therefore, I was wondering if anyone has any self help methods which they would recommend?

[loppyloo61]

Hi Jade27, Firstly I would just like to welcome you to this wonderful Site! It is good to hear from you, & believe it or not you have just made a very positive step towards getting help for your Eating Disorder! You hav"nt said which Eating Disorder you suffer from, all of them are particularly insidious illnesses to deal with, trying to live alone, "controlling ED" when it ends up they control you!

There is always someone available on this Site you can "Talk" to & you could probably relate to many on here?

I suffer from Anorexia for many years. It was"nt until I almost lost my own life to it in July 2012 when rushed into Intensive Care Unit with Pneumonia, Septicaemia, my Vital Organs started to just down & I was hooked up to Life-Support Machine, the Staff in Intensive Care told my husband they did"nt expect me to survive! I was in there for over a month!

I was well under 5 stone in weight & BMI of less than 12!

I tried to do it myself, with Psychologist, CBT Counselling ect. for many years but was unsuccessful! Anorexia ended up "controlling me!" as opposed to me controlling my own life!

I cannot urge you just how dangerous your Eating Disorder is as you don"t think it will happen to you, believe me it did & I was terrified!

Please try & speak to a close friend you trust who could maybe go along with you to see GP for a referral to an Eating Disorder Clinic or there are Charity based ones you can attend called BEAT, just look on-line for your nearest one! Or has your weight plummeted so low you are frightened they will admit you to hospital & force you to eat or "Force-feed" you! This is the very last straw theses days to admit someone with ED unless your life is @ Risk! Apparently I was told they have higher % of Recovery using Out-Patient Facilities!

I was finally referred to Specialised High-Risk Eating Disorder in Psychiatric Hospital who saved my life! Although it was such a daunting experience being on a Specialised High-Risk Eating Disorder Ward! Trust me you don"t want to go down this Road!

I would hate to see someone go down as far as I did!

You have be very Brave by just seeking help on line, I am so proud of you for reaching out for help! I obviously don"t know what stage you are with your ED but guess you must be pretty low & frightened to seek help but well done to you, you have made the first into reaching out seeking for help,someone to talk to!

I would just like to extend my Good Luck wishes to you, hopefully you have acknowledge you have a problem early enough to seek Professional Help before your ED does spiral completely out of control! The sooner you speak to someone who knows how to deal with ED the better!I was fortunate enough to have a very empathetic/sympathetic Counsellor 1;1, who like I said saved my life! If caught early enough there is a fair chance of Full Recovery!

Please Jade try & speak to someone! Truly cannot urge you enough just how important this is before it gets even worse as all ED are progressive, unless dealt with by the appropriate Professionals!

I hope you can resolve this insidious Illness as soon as possible, the longer you leave it the worse it will get, I can promise you that from bitter experience of my own!

Take Care

Sending you positive, healing energies & courage to do the right thing for yourself!

In my thoughts & prayers

Lynn X

[Turandot]

go to a yoga class. I'm not kidding. I know exactly what you're feeling. I've been knowing for 19 years... I'm much much better now thanks to yoga. Go for any slow class, Yengar, vinyasa, kundalini, javamukty any really. Just go and breath. BREATH. it will remind you who you are and will help you get hold of yourself again. Don't be nasty to you, it's normal losing control. It's the way we are. Maybe we are supposed to lose control now because that situation will lead us somewhere better, more comfortable and next time we will be trained enough to not to fall in that spiral again.

Please, start yoga and read the wisdom of yoga, a book which is saving me from myself.

I wish you all the best Jade...