It’s not your fault; taking me for granted
Giving more than I received became an expectation
I should have told you exactly what I wanted
I should have asked you to make a better effort
But I was afraid
My self-respect was always lacking
It was imbedded in my brain
That I was jaded and flawed
That I should be grateful for the opportunity of love
It all lead to overcompensation
Instead of asking you to pull you weight
I think I conformed to a lowered expectation
It’s not your fault you didn’t give enough
I guess I never gave you the chance to offer
I forgive you for underestimating my value
I overestimated your value too
It’s not your fault I thought you were worth more
And I was worth less
I was your teacher in that respect
How did I expect to be involved in your life?
When you weren’t interested in mine since the beginning
How did I expect for you to understand my point of view?
When you stopped making an effort to even get to know me
You treated other people better than you treated me
You listened and considered your friends and family,
even your colleagues took priority
You stopped seeking my advice
You only texted when you were bored
or wanted something
I forgive you, it’s not your fault I became used to getting nothing
It’s not your fault I’m on the borderline
not far away, but not quite up to your standard
I should have clearly expressed that disappointments wouldn’t do
Instead of thinking that my worth was earned from giving
In essence, it’s not your fault that I attract what I think that I deserve
