Who brought the cheese?...I have more whine!

[Scullerymaid]

Greetings! I'm so over this whole situation. I was optimistic after meeting with my surgeon Tuesday last. After 6 of 12 chemo treatments my tumor has shrunk by half. The plan was to continue with the treatments to further shrink the tumor, have a smaller surgery and be done with this insanity by May. Thursday I was getting ready for my weekly treatment and became short of breath and had chest pain. I ended up in the back of an ambulance to the ER and an overnight stay at the hospital. CAT scan showed no blood clots. Friday morning they did a heart catheterization (fun fun 😭) and found no major blockages. I see the cardiologist tomorrow, he's trying to get me in for a heart MRI. I'm being told I may have "broken heart syndrome" ...I can see that, but that's another long story unrelated to my diagnosis,lol.

My fingers are cold and numb, my feet are always cold, I can't regulate my body temp, too hot or freezing, I'm lightheaded (probably the 4 new meds for heart) I just don't want to do this anymore. I'm trying to stay positive but I am so tired of being sick. Here is a link to something that always makes me laugh when I start complaining about things: m.youtube.com/watch?v=9hYGt...(Not working as expected?) from another sister warrior, Gilda Radner.

Thanks for listening! Blessings!

[Rhwright12]

Praying get well wishes to u! 🙏🏻💕

[Scullerymaid in reply to Rhwright12]

❤❤❤

[Paradise43]

You are a warrior! One baby step at a time. Even one half baby step at a time makes you a whining survivor. I’ll be praying for you. We’re pulling for you. Prayers and more wine

[Scullerymaid in reply to Paradise43]

Thank you Paradise! Sometimes a little whining helps...and sometimes a little wine helps! When I'm really hurting and really down, I try to envision myself in a cocoon, turning to mush, only to emerge in a few months flying toward my true purpose... Though I'm not 100% sure what that may be 🤷❤

[Paradise43 in reply to Scullerymaid]

Sometimes I pretend I’m in a hole like a fur lined nest for baby bunnies. I can see everyone walking by but I just roll over in the soft fur and have sweet dreams until I come back out into glorious sunshine. Silly. But everyone needs a place to go when nothing makes sense.