Speaking on Loss Libido

[Baldylocks]

What’s to be done when the libido is intact but the mechanics no longer work. I’ve accepted the plumbing fallout for health reasons but as every guy knows our tools are our mental measure. It’s not a straight or gay thing, it’s a guy thing. I’m finding myself between worlds and oddly because of a two on one three way. I’m still very mentally aroused by the female body but also allured to males (in particular to one 75 year old). The curiosity of my mental state is when a female excites me all things are proper and I envision my fantasies as a man with a woman but with him am only excited as being his bottom bitch and I can’t get down low enough for him. I don’t shy from this except all anal is limited to finger play and tongue by him. I’ve tried accepting him but it was a catastrophe for me.

I’ve told him never again in him f..king me but the new lady in our life has shared us both in wonderful satisfying ways that I thought I would never know again and I’m developing strong feelings and want her to be pleased in our sex play. He’s satisfied by us both but she wants to step it up and have him f..k me while I eat the muff. We haven’t told her of our first and only experience at it and how I passed out. I don’t want to disappoint her but should I say no and explain or should I chance trying to take it again? Obviously it didn’t kill me the first time and I’ll be with loving friends and our mixed sex is better than what just the two of us were doing before but my fear of the pain and damage to my anus/rectum border stress anxiety.

So here is the question, do I bite the bullet and enjoy myself while taking the pain and everyone gets satisfied?

[Hidden]

If he is too big for you then do what makes it enjoyable for all of you... you included. I'm sure she will completely understand and find other ways to enjoy each other.

[Baldylocks in reply to Hidden]

he and I had reached our understanding prior to meeting her and introducing her into our love life but having her has been especially fulfilling for him and renewed a spark for me as well. However, you got it right, he is too big but seeking him in action with is so erotic and provoking has me thinking to give it another try for them both so I can stay included. It seems torturous for her too but at the same time she can’t get enough. I understand the addiction because I’ve been that way with performing oral on him from my very first time. It’s just trying to take it to another level for them and I want to take the ride if I can.

[pythagoras]

You sound like it’s a horror story from some planet beyond the galaxy in some very dark celestial corner.May the Lord help you extricate yourself and emerge into the light to save your tormented soul.

[Baldylocks in reply to pythagoras]

thanks for caring enough to share your thoughts.