What’s to be done when the libido is intact but the mechanics no longer work. I’ve accepted the plumbing fallout for health reasons but as every guy knows our tools are our mental measure. It’s not a straight or gay thing, it’s a guy thing. I’m finding myself between worlds and oddly because of a two on one three way. I’m still very mentally aroused by the female body but also allured to males (in particular to one 75 year old). The curiosity of my mental state is when a female excites me all things are proper and I envision my fantasies as a man with a woman but with him am only excited as being his bottom bitch and I can’t get down low enough for him. I don’t shy from this except all anal is limited to finger play and tongue by him. I’ve tried accepting him but it was a catastrophe for me.
I’ve told him never again in him f..king me but the new lady in our life has shared us both in wonderful satisfying ways that I thought I would never know again and I’m developing strong feelings and want her to be pleased in our sex play. He’s satisfied by us both but she wants to step it up and have him f..k me while I eat the muff. We haven’t told her of our first and only experience at it and how I passed out. I don’t want to disappoint her but should I say no and explain or should I chance trying to take it again? Obviously it didn’t kill me the first time and I’ll be with loving friends and our mixed sex is better than what just the two of us were doing before but my fear of the pain and damage to my anus/rectum border stress anxiety.
So here is the question, do I bite the bullet and enjoy myself while taking the pain and everyone gets satisfied?
