"After a while, my life began to take on meaning. I let myself feel. I unearthed pain, raw emotions, and intense feelings. I began to understand that I could celebrate the little things – what I call my “wins” – like getting out of bed, meditating for 10 minutes, doing yoga, writing in my journal. These are not minor feats, especially for anyone suffering from depression or anxiety," Karena says.
Read about Karena's experience with depression and anxiety: adaa.org/living-with-anxiet...
I wish I could let myself feel. I am 71 years old, a successful college professor, but I shut down my emotions as a child because they were too dangerous to have with my family. That has made me asexual, unapproachable as an intimate identity, dissociative, and extremely lonely. I've decided to communicate on this site so that I don't do harm to myself.
Cathy
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. If you are considering harming yourself, I would (and I have done this myself) go to the nearest hospital and they will help you find resources to help. I chose to do inpatient (and that's what the psychologist at the hospital recommended) because I was very suicidal. You are worth it. Please get yourself some help. Don’t wait.. I hope and pray that you find the right kind of help and resources for you.
Thank you for your kind and inspiring words, Kitty. I am working closely with both my psychiatrist and new psychologist on my issues. My psychiatrist is putting me on a new medicine this week.
Thanks for your concern. Stay well.
Cathy
