I haven't written a blog before but today I felt I wanted to share something with you and I hope you dont mind. Dad passed away 6 weeks ago now and since that time we have had fathers day, his own birthday and today was my birthday. When I woke up this morning it was the first time that it really hit me that pops (sorry our affectionate name for dad) wouldn't be here for my birthday. I went through the morning thinking 'I'd be going picking him now to bring him to the house' 'now's the time he'd want me to open his present' 'now's the time he'd want a bacon buttie' he loved his food!! I thought I was doing quite well.
Then I went over to my daughters as we were going to see Harry Potter (I am 49 by the way not 12 ) She gave me her card and pressie and then she gave me another one. Now a few weeks ago she'd asked what I wanted and I said just buy me a trolley token, I love trolley tokens as I never have a pound when I go to the supermarket. Anyway... I opened up the present and it was a box with a picture of a key ring on the front. Ok I thought not a trolley token but there is always use for a good key ring. I opened the box and instantly saw a picture of me and pops engraved on the front. That started the eyes filling. Then I turned it over and on the back, it was inscribed with the following:
Someone once said 'a father carries pictures where his money used to be' - now you can do the same! Pops wouldn't have wanted your birthday to pass without something from him, so this is your present from him, with all his love xxxx
Now I was into full wailing as this was such a lovely gesture particularly as I had only been thinking this morning he wasn't here with me. At which point my daughter very loudly said, 'you haven't got to the good part yet' and she touched the side of the keyring and little drawer pulled out and inside was............... a trolley token.
I laughed through the tears and thought good old pops, through his grandaughter he is still looking after me and making sure I can always get my shopping trolley
I hope you all don't mind me sharing this, but through all the bad days with the PSP and everything he had to go through, there was also some good times. I will miss him greatly but the keyring and shopping trolley as well as my memories of him will always be close by.
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