Hi guys, I just wanted to talk for a minute, I’m scared, I’m worried, I don’t know how to do this next bit.
Colins is in the later stages, several times I have thought he is about to go, but then comes back again.
I have promised him he will be at home, I will be here with him. I am determined I will keep that promise, I know when he’s gone I will have no regrets.
But I’m scared, scared of the unknown, I have read so many peoples account of their loved ones last days, hours, all are different, so no doubt this part of our journey will be different aswell. Will I cope with it, will I do all the right things, will I make all the right decisions, when will I tell the kids, all these things go round in my head. Deep down I know things will be OK, but for now my whole life is on hold still waiting for this big event to happen, wanting it but not wanting it.
Thanks for listening perhaps I can get some sleep now.
Love and hugs to all xxxxxx Helen. Xxxx