Firstly thank you to everyone who responded to my post, it really does help through them dark moments..
Anyway, mum is feeling much better and the chest infection has gone and her energy come back. Or at least some of it.
I have just had two weeks off work so have been able to spend lots of quality time together with my mum, my marriage is back on track so things are on the up. So much so I have just popped into the garden for a cheeky ciggy accompanied by a glass of wine.
I have left mother sitting in the kitchen with two punnets of strawberries to chop. She will probably stuff herself with half of them so I make sure I give her plenty to allow enough for the rest of the family. I will then get her to make us all an Eton mess that will make her feel both useful and occupied, best bit being she doesn't have to worry what it looks like, I just hope she leaves enough strawberries to go round. Oh and bought two boxes of meringue as she has rather a sweet tooth haha. I love that woman to bits and love seeing her happy and laughing. Chocolate Eclaire are the funniest, she doesn't half make some strange shapes with them.
Back to work next week so it won't be long before her anxiety rises so got to make the most of it
Just hope your all having a positive day too, if not stay strong, scream cry whatever helps. Just please remember that the feeling will pass and things will look up again. Maybe just for a few minutes but they will come.
Thank you again for all the wonderful support you have shown me, kindest regards, a much more positive Sarah xxx