Hi all, so at my 12 week scan I was a bit shocked to find out that I am expecting identical twins in October, after the shock wore off, (this took a couple of weeks) im ecstatic. Before I knew, I had got my head around having one baby and knew how hard it was going to be as im going to be a single mum, but with 2 I admit that it did send me into a bit of a panic....thankfully iv got a very good support network around me and cant wait to meet my 2 little monkeys! Iv got an anterior placenta which I think is blocking me feeling a lot of the movement and all I can really feel is my heartbeat pulsing in my stomach. I assume this is normal and hope to start feeling them jabbing me soon enough. The other thing that has been bothering me is that I will be 18wks tomorrow and I don't think I look big enough yet, I know that one day soon i'l wake up and wonder where this huge bump came from, but at the moment when people ask if your expecting and your like yeah, im 4 & 1/2 months with twins, they're firstly like "really are you sure? you don't look that big!!" then secondly "im sure they will be lovely, but how are you going to cope??" its driving me mad! I am under no false elusions, I know it will be hard at times but I also know that it will be the most rewarding thing I ever do as a person! But why do people always feel the need to point out the negatives??
Im receiving great care from my hospital consultant, (the midwife couldn't care less, but 1 out of 2 is better than none I guess!) Iv been having scans every 2 weeks since 16wks, I have another this week to keep an eye on how they are growing and to check there are no signs of twin to twin transfusion, they were very happy at my last scan as they were both within millimetres of each other but I have been warned that there is a greater risk because of the shared placenta.
Im getting really excited about my 20wk scan on the 15th of may, I know that this is an important scan whether your carrying a single baby or more and I haven't bought anything for my little ones yet, as firstly I want to get the all clear from the scan (the usual, make sure everything is good & well in there) and secondly I can hopefully find out then if its pink or blue!! I really don't mind which it is as long as they are healthy.
I haven't really enjoyed my pregnancy health wise though, in the fist 12wks I had really bad morning sickness and nausea and from around 13wks I started getting constant headaches which some days are worse than others, but are always there. Iv had more tests at the doctors in 5wks than iv ever had in my life to rule out all sorts of dangerous conditions, one doctor even recommended that I see a neurologist for a head scan but I am reluctant to do this (un-necessary radiation) and I voiced all this to my GP and he agrees with me that it hopefully is all the hormones (twice the amount of a normal pregnancy) and so im persevering until they either go away on they're own or until after iv had the babies when the tests wont effect them.
So there you go....that's all for the moment! Id love to hear from anyone who is in a similar situation to mine, there are so many worries in pregnancy and its all so new to me, I just want to make sure that its "normal" 
Bye for now xx
32 weeks 3 days, scared still and anxiety has returned big time
Wee update
Any positive birth stories out there?
