Except I don’t mean my hippopotamus (word finding difficulties anyone?) I mean my hippocampus. It appears to be saturated with pred, and steroid dementia is to the fore! Not a nice term, but there we are.
Last evening at my language lesson my ‘hippopotamus’ was really misbehaving. Word recall was appalling, then I got frustrated with myself, and half way through the 2 hours I could have sat and wept. (Frustration? PMR tiredness? Steroid lability?) whatever it is it ticks me off. So at the end of the lesson I tried to explain to my teacher how difficult I find things, how irritated I get, and how PMR and pred affect my cognitive function. But of course the words and sensible explanation eluded me. She asked if there is anything she can do to help, and I don’t think there is, it’s just me and my 2 ‘pals’.
I can lose my thread in English, concentration is poor, I lose words in the mists of my grey matter; I can lose the thread mid sentence; I am easily distracted and start to do something only to find that I’ve abandoned that and moved on to something unrelated. So in a foreign language these problems are doubled, and because that foreign language is Polish, it must be at least tripled!!! OMG is it a difficult tongue-twisting language!
Last night as I fought my tears down, I was on the edge of declaring. I can’t do this any more! But the cold light of day brings me back to the fact that I WANT to do it. It is interesting, and must be a good work out for my pathetic brain. So I have concluded that I MUST TRY HARDER.
Hints and tips anyone? General ‘get your brain to work’ ideas. I’m going to review my diet, and increase my fresh air and exercise.
I can find links to explanations about pred affecting cognitive function, but am at a loss for anything scientific (not anecdotal) for PMR ‘brain fog’. Anyone have any links? Then I can send these to my teacher, as I’m sure she thought I was quite bonkers with my attempted explanations last night.
Cheers lovely people.