Well we finally moved! It's taken over a year complicated by my meltdown. But I now have a home. It's just wonderful.
As a consequence my life style has transformed.
I'm in a gorgeous town, everything is on my doorstep, literally. I have entered the gentle ebb and flow of 'things. Wednesday is market day with an array of perfect vegetables, Friday is fresh bread from an artisan bakery. Tuesday is lunch with a newly made friend in the shop opposite. My head nods as I pass windows, familiar faces smile, hands wave. I have a safety net.
My car hasn't moved for two weeks, my tiny fridge never swells from a weekly shop, I buy daily, everything is less..... Less rubbish, less dishes, less laundry, less mess.
As a consequence I can cope. More than that, I'm blooming. I feel liberated, I've gained some control back. I'm no longer overwhelmed.