I've dithered of days about writing this but just don't know where else to go.
I am really struggling at the moment dispite telling myself I'm a lucky girl to be here etc etc
Every 8 weeks I return to Oncology, for a review. every 8 weeks we repeat the Ca125, every 8 weeks we wait. Wait for the news, wait for the outcome.. Apart from my Ca 125 going a bit wonky once it's been the same ish since October when I finished chemo.
I feel like I'm in waiting limbo and it sucks, I really want to get back on track to stop feeling so scared all the time.
I'm so sad, angry and livid with living like this, my poor husband is living with a witch at the moment. I would go to the McMillan drop in but our hospital is 50 miles away - (yes I live in remote North Cornwall)
I feel feeble asking given what some of you ladies are going through at the moment, but..
What do I do ladies, how do I get to my new normal.....
Huge loves to all