Wonder if any of you feel as I do?
After having amazing treatment via our N.H.S and still surving at stage 4 and making the best of life and being told how brave I am and how well I look, still find it hard that I will no longer have the peace of mind that I had prior to my cancer diagnosis.
Life is now a suspended sentence going from nextscan to the next, sitting in waiting rooms forever hopeful, not knowing what's to come, my next scan is 7 weeks away, so holidays to book etc, but still lurking in the back of my mind is the big C. No one can understand the totally helpless feeling, for once in our lives we are not in control.
I am mostly an upbeat happy person, but at a relatively young age of 68 find it hard to accept this new way of life.
Sorry to be depressing but wandered if others felt the same?
Jackie O xx