A new member here who struggles a lot.

[axaxou]

I need help! My OCD has attached into something I've really done.

I am a 20 years old guy and last week, out of stupidity, had one sexual encounter with a 44 years old man. Now I feel sick with myself, humiliated and gross.

But mostly of all I feel used. I want to get over it but it keeps on playing in my mind, this- the sexual encounter.

I don't know what else to do. I've called many hotlines to help myself but nothing has worked. I have called my doctor and he has changed a little bit my meds but I still feel the same. I don't know if I'm gonna ever get over it, but I want to sooooo bad. Just to stop thinking about this one thing. :/