I'm think I'm experiencing ocd symptoms just Happen out of the blue. Can someone who is going through it share their experience.
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Hey! I am sorry to hear you are struggling right now. Everybody’s experience with OCD is different and just because you resonate or don’t resonate with my story is not indicative of any mental health issue you might have. I would highly encourage you to seek help from a medical professional who can evaluate you and provide you with the correct resources. You can also find a therapist who specializes in OCD in your area and speak with them if you feel more comfortable in that setting. That being said, I have struggled with what I now know is OCD pretty much my whole life. As a child I would get stuck closing the door a certain amount of times or saying a phrase repeatedly until I obtained that “just right” feeling. I would also obsess over my health and feared that I was going to die from a brain tumor or an allergic reaction. This was all before the age of 12 but I was an expert on keeping my compulsions hidden and I think my parents just viewed my quirks as nothing more than slight anxiety. For many years my symptoms laid dormant and did not interfere with the quality of my life. In high school I went through a very difficult time after suffering from repeated panic attacks. I became obsessed with the idea that I couldn’t breathe and missed many days of school because of it. The anxiety and fear was crippling and I was too ashamed to discuss my issues with anyone. Because of that I was not properly diagnosed but was able to return to school with medication. For the years following my symptoms were mild and I was able to function like everyone else. Fast forward to a year and a half ago and I was driving to work one day and was suddenly caught off guard with an intrusive thought that I had hit someone with my car. I felt like I had lost my mind and over the next few months I continued to have intrusive thoughts about hit and runs and violently hurting or killing my loved ones. Obviously this was the farthest from what I actually wanted but I was convinced that the thoughts meant something about me. After months of treatment I now know that this is not the case and that recovery is possible. Over the years my obsessions/compulsions have changed but the content of those obsessions truly doesn’t matter. Everyone has different fears and values, and unfortunately OCD likes to attack what is most important to us. I’m trying not make this post too lengthy and I hope it’s helpful to you. I have also gone into more detail on my profile with posts about false memories and other struggles I have had if you want to check those out. I hope you are able to get your correct diagnosis, whatever that may be, and know that regardless of what you are going through recovery is possible. Sending you strength and comfort! 💕
Thank you so much for responding I understand in a certain way how you're feeling, my ocd is about blasphemy and I know in a million years I would never done that, it has gotten worse since I was out of employment for nearly 8 months. I've been very depressed which I haven't been in years. I'm hoping to get the correct diagnosis. Best of wishes to you.
It's a really difficult thing to deal with, OCD, but there is plenty of support. In the answer to MyOCD123's response you say that you have been unemployed and that your OCD focuses on blasphemy.
Being out of work can knock your self-esteem and feeling of worth. Much of our identity is bound up with our work and we lose something of that when we are unemployed. That can leave you vulnerable and allow OCD to creep in.
I'm not religious and so my OCD has never been about blasphemy, but I do know that it is a common form of OCD amongst people of faith. As MyOCD123 says, OCD likes to attack us just where things matter most to us, such as a relationship with a partner, family, or in your case, faith. It might help you that many famous theologians have had this sort of OCD!
Do get a diagnosis and ask for a referral to a therapist. Medication can help to dampen down the worst of OCD, but CBT therapies are necessary to help you deal with it. Often medication can make you feel a bit lousy to begin with, then you start to feel much better.
Meanwhile read up on OCD. There are many excellent books about it, but Overcoming Obsessive Compulsive Disorder has some discussion of blasphemy OCD that might be relevant to you.
Be gentle with yourself, don't beat yourself up or blame yourself. Remember that your intrusive thoughts about blasphemy are not who you really are.
Yes I've been reading up about it, I've read also that if you push thoughts away they'll come back even harder
I'm focusing on getting the help I need because and to also realise that I'm in control of my thoughts but before I knew this I thought I couldn't control it. I've been attending a group for persons who've Been suffering from ocd but no one has gone through the blasphemous thoughts I've been having so Its kinda really difficult for me to open up. I never knew that ocd is made up of many different types.
There are as many sorts of OCD as there are people who have it! But it often does follow patterns. But don't think that you can't be open about it.
Also, remember that everyone has weird thoughts, including unpleasant thoughts about things they would never actually do. For most people, they come and go in the background and they don't pay much attention to them. But OCD makes you hold onto them and, as you say, the more you push them away the more they assail you.
CBT should teach you how to ignore them and leave them to come and go in the background. Not the easiest thing to do, but it does help.
I'm trying to open up about it, but I'm afraid people would start judging me and ridicule me. I tend to worry alot and now I'm realising that ocd feeds off of that. I will need to attend more sessions for persons who are suffering with ocd!
Believe me, there are weirder things that OCD makes people do. I could make a list of mine and a lot of people would think I'm truly certifiable! No need to be embarrassed. It's such a secretive condition, partly because people are afraid that others will think they're weird.
Hi,
Where to start!
Its such a scary thing to have when you dont know whats going on.
My OCD happened I believe when my anxiety triggered. I remember going to the DR obsessively thinking something was wrong with me when I would get panic attacks. I didnt realize that was OCD until later.
I would stay up worrying about my health.
Suddenly I couldn't drive because I had a fear of driving... fearing I would hurt someone and not realize it. Now I have to wash my hands at all times throughout the day depending what I touched, even after I shower! Its such a mind boggling experience. You know it doesnt make sense but you cant shake the thoughts.
I fear so much now, anything red, anything that resembles bodily fluids, if someone touches my straw or something i am going to intake i wont drink it. Its alot. If you have any questions please reach out!
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