Put the pain, inflammation and fatigue to one side for a minute because I've realised that what is suddenly overwhelming me, as a result of me being ill for the last 9 weeks and not being able to work at all, is the fear factor.
I am usually such confident, social person but since I've had this RA, I'm scared to do anything. I'm scared to commit to doing anything with friends. I'm scared to drive more than half an hour. I'm scared to eventually go back to work in case I can't get through the day. I'm scared to go out for dinner in case I eat the wrong thing and it causes a flare-up or I overdo it and then have to stay in bed the next day. I'm literally scared to do anything except stay in the house and look after myself.
No one can prepare you for how mentally this illness affects you.