Thank you all for your replies a few months ago. I received a letter 20 7 17 to say I have been awarded tier 2 ill health retirement from the NHS. Still no idea how much I will get or when. My contract was terminated on 31st July. I have to fill in forms for ESA which I didn't know about and is a worry.
What I wanted to say was thanks for your comments especially helix. Everything you said is happening. I can manage on less money. Health wise so much better I can plan and pace much better. Been going to aqua aerobics which is helping. Can cook home made meals which is a lot healthier . Subsequently lost 1 and and half stone. Wouldn't have been to do any of this while at work.
Went on summer holiday and had a good time. Last holiday in Jan I was exhausted just with travelling and trying to unpack.
Got details of a voluntary organisation therapy dogs. I am going to look into this for the near future. Have the perfect dog to do this with. It involves going into schools hospitals homes etc a bit like PAT dogs.
The future is bright !