Technically I guess I should be posting in Month 2, but didn't seem right, as I'm only just over a month - I'm approx. at 1 month 21 hours and 15minutes and 28secs
Every month I always take my 84 year old mom to the casino for a day of gambling. She really can't do much these days, and always looks forward to this day. So my anxiety was stemming from all the smoking that goes on there:eek: Where I live, smoking is banned in just about all public places, be it indoor or outdoor However casinos here are run by Native American Indians and Tribal land is not subject to California's restrictions - so lots of smoking:confused:
I knew it was going to be a huge trigger day, but for my moms sake, I knew I had to put my big girl panties on and just do it Yep It was full of OMG " I want that" triggers!! but I kept my blinders on and moved around a lot, whenever a smoker got close –
I moved away. I drank about 4 bottles of water, had 3 coffees, finished up the candy in my purse, repeated over and over NOPE and went outside to smell the flowers – and even though exhausted, I ended up leaving without smoking or wetting myself:rolleyes: Best feeling EVER!!!! :D
Weird though, as I write this - some of that stupid want, is trying to come back:eek: but you know - I think I can wash that sucker down with a beer and just call it an early night !!! I'm so not willing to push my luck any further today Happy Thursday all...