I thought I would be feeling a lot better by now - but I still have no ability to set my mind to anything. I suppose a cigarette would have been my reward for finishing a job. Some reward - sitting in my garage on my own smoking! Seems ridiculous! Have these feelings of panic and I think its actually making me quite isolated and depressed. I'm fine at work - plenty of people around and I never smoked at work anyway. Unfortunately I don't work every day so I'm at home a lot. Housework isn't getting done and half the time I can t be bothered to cook for myself. And that last cigarette of the night, marking going to bed time: now I sit up till all hours, napping on the sofa, so then I'm always tired in the morning. Sorry for such a moaning post, just really struggling.
The upside is I don't stink, neither do my clothes or the garage, if I give a little cough it no longer has that crackly sound that marks out a smoker ... and I'm not seeing an extra £9 odd being handed over when all I needed was a carton of milk.