I cannot believe that I am finally here! When I look back to 12 months ago, I didn't know how I could get here, having had pathetic attempts at quitting before. But, there were people already in the Penthouse, so I knew it was possible. But of course, there were the mental obstacles which I put in my own way such as:
1) I've been smoking for over 40 years......it's going to be impossible to break this amost lifelong habit.....
2) I'm more addicted to it than anyone else, so it'll be harder for me...
3) I've had a hard life and there are so many difficult issues that my darling daughters and I are having to face......
1) My stop smoking advisor told me of a man who had smoked for over 80 years and he quit.......so if someone can kick the habit after 80 years of smoking, then I ought to be able to....
2) We are all as addicted as each other...it's the nature of nicotine...you are hooked from the very first one.......
3) Life is not a "bowl of cherries".......if I consider that life has not been fair to my daughters and I....well, fags aren't going to change that.
So, this is how I finally managed it:
Champix helped hugely, by taking away the cravings for a fag. This forum and the lovely people on it helped, by being so understanding and supportive and by sharing their experiences.....after all, we are all on the same journey!
But ultimately, it is up to us as individuals; no-one can quit for us. This lead me to making plans fo my quit. Firstly, I was not going to refer to it as "quitting", "stopping" or "giving up" as those are all negative things and sounded like I was going to be making a huge sacrifice, so I referred to it as wanting to be a non-smoker.....that made it sound like there was something wonderful ahead for me, rather than sacrifice.
The other "weapons" in my war against cigarettes were being aware and alert to situations which could get out of hand and lead to a fag, and having an alternative for dealing with these situations. If I felt such a situation arising, I would do everything possible to nip it in the bud.....this often meant having a box of Maltesers or a packet of nuts.....anything but a fag!
My main reason for wanting to be a non-smoker was financial. It had literally got to the point of fags or food. So another brilliant weapon was to remind myself that as a non-smoker, I wouldn't have to be in that awful situation.
To anyone who reads this and is just starting out or is somewhere along the Penthouse road.......you can do this. As long as you don't give in when things get tough, you will become a non-smoker. If you have a fag every time the going gets tough, well, you'll never, ever be a non-smoker and that would be a real shame.
THANK YOU TO THE BHF FOR THIS FORUM, AND THANK YOU TO ALL OF THE LOVELY PEOPLE ON IT.....I COULDN'T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU.
Lots of love,