Hi to you all, I started my quit journey on 24th September with the aid of Champix after deciding again that I have to give the fags up before I end up depriving my kids of their mother, the getting out of breath whilst playing with them really did it for me but I also knew that this time if I was to really succeed I would need a little help.
The Dr gave me Champix and I was excited to start using it after reading so many positive success stories, I was also aware of the possible side effects and so told the Dr I would keep a close eye on myself, anyway all was ok on days 1 - 3 then the dose went up and I noticed that I felt a bit down and overly grumpy but put this down to my time of the month, these feelings that I was having didn't ease off as they usually would do, infact they got worse and then on day 8 after the dose doubled again I felt really sick, I carried on with the tablets but was getting more and more down and more and more paranoid until last Friday which was day 10, had a complete emotional breakdown and spent the afternoon and evening in tears, convinced that no one cared for me, that my husband wanted to be with someone else and my kids would be better off if I wasn't in their lives, that night I had a really bad nightmare where all my family had disowned me for no reason and when I woke myself up I was convinced the dream was a reality. On Saturday morning I had to go and get a few bits from the supermarket, my husband (who was really worried about me) came with me, within 5 minutes of being in the shop I broke down and had to leave, my husband asked me what had happened to cause me such distress and I just told him that I didn't know.
After a long talk and telling him how paranoid I felt about everything and especially about him leaving me, he said that I needed to stop the tablets; but the thing is that I really want to quit smoking
I spent the rest of Saturday in tears as well. Yesterday I decided to lower the dose and instead of taking a blue pill twice in a day I cut one in half and had just half (0.5 mg in the day) I felt a bit better in myself but I was with all my family (that kind of reassured me my previous dream was ridiculous!)
I have tried in vain to get to see the Dr today but as is always the case, there are never any appointments when you need one despite me telling them of the negative/depressing thoughts I am currently having and I have to ring back tomorrow :confused: !!
I have never felt as low as I do right now and so have not taken any Champix at all today as I don't know that I should, has anyone else ever had this type of problem with Champix and if so how did you progress, what did you do? did you carry on taking the tablets or stop them? I could really use some advice from other Champix users that have had similar issues or know someone that has, I really don't want to fail in my quit attempt but at the moment feel like I am getting no-where fast, I am still smoking but not quite as much as before unless I get myself into a state and then I seem to hit the fag's! this is not what I hoped for when I started this route to quitting
I wish I could have been one of the lucky ones that Champix worked for and didn't give any side effects to but it doesn't seem to be the case for me.
If anyone has any useful advice for me then I am all ears, thank you for reading and I'm sorry it is so long.