I've only gone and done it!

A tad early, but I am overjoyed to have reached 365 days smoke free and I can’t wait for 9pm to post! It hasn’t always been easy, but it is now and the way I feel today I can’t ever see myself ever going back.

There are so many of you, without whom, I don’t really think I would be here today, and I am thankful to each and every one of you – most of you know who you are and you have my eternal gratitude for your wise words and just being here when I needed you, some who haven’t a clue what they have done for me but just by posting their own struggles, victories and regrettable failures, have put my own selfish mutterings into perspective and turned me into such a focused, yet sweeter smelling version of the old stinky me.

I have just been looking back at some of my earlier posts – boy was I needy!, and in the later posts I am laughing at myself as I see how excited I became at every milestone – I clearly remember getting so excited at six weeks I posted a day early, then the afternoon I had an impossibly long crave and the intense desire to go and plant one on the boss after his usual crass insensitivity hit a nerve, and how much I really wanted to smoke when I lost one of my birds – of course the feeling didn’t last long but it really did reinforce how easy it would have been to let this all go just because the old me always used to puff away like a chimney whenever I was upset, that episode really put the want/need question into perspective for me – as much as I wanted to smoke, it would not have changed what happened or how I felt and I didn’t really need it, this meant I was able to rationalise my yearning.

I am now turning my newly found resolve to my weight and size issues, I may not have lost a huge amount of weight over the last two months but I have lost an amazing 15.5 inches, now I’m starting to see results I am overwhelmed with a feeling of déjà vu – just like when I started noticing the benefits of not smoking made me even keener to stay quit – I’m getting the same steely focus to fight the flab – that and the rush I get at the end of every work out!

To use a cliché, this really has been an incredible journey from addict to freedom, and as much as I never want to see those early days again, I would not change any of it, I’m glad the early days were as tough as they were, I honestly believe I may have started again if I hadn’t had to work so hard to stay smoke free, now I appreciate how life is so much better, I’m calmer, I don’t clock watch at work but am getting the job done faster as my concentration has improved so much, I love my food even more than before and am keen to try all sorts of new foods (hence the poundage lol) I buy fresh flowers every week as I love the fragrance throughout the house, I have the biggest collection of beautiful smelling shower gels you could imagine – every morning I play eeny meeny miny mo to find out which particular flower and precious gem I’m going to smell like, now I have a long leisurely shower every morning, I take my time getting ready and even have breakfast before I leave, the complete opposite of before when I would cram in three fags, two coffees and a two minute rinse under the showerhead as I knew once I got to work I had to wait for lunchtime to have a fag, then I would cram another three in whilst scoffing down and not tasting my food – now lunch is an occasion to be savoured.

I really could go on but I see some of you have fallen asleep already, so I will just say, thank you again and I am so excited to have reached the penthouse.

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  • :D Jenn........I am totally, completely, absolutely and utterly delighted for you! :D

    I have followed your quit closely and you have been an absolute inspiration. I remember your bad, bad days........the afternoon-long crave and losing your birdy and I marvelled at the time at your strength in getting through these difficult and testing situations. I am so glad that you are now able to do/have lovely things instead of being chained and addicted to something as vile and foul as fags. A lovely person like yourself deserves to have lovely things.....enjoy every single one of them, Jenn, and enjoy the fabulous fag-free future that awaits you....YOU DESERVE IT!!

    Lots of love

    Val

    xxx

  • Sorry, I don't know how to get pictures on here, but here is a link to a fluffy bunny and kitten for you!

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    Val

    xxx

  • Utterly delighted for you Jen! :D

    I can just about taste your excitement at having reached the mighty Penthouse and never was a Penthouse suite so well deserved. I read some of your old posts when I was starting out and I remember the episode when one of your birds died very clearly. You did so well on that occasion to resist temptation and your courage and determination shone through as they have throughout the past year.

    Well done girl- you must (and should) be very, very proud of yourself. :)

  • CONGRATULATIONS JENNY!!!!!!

    What a fantastic achievement, can't wait until I get there!

    Save a seat for me and have a nice glass of bubbly!

    Bev. xxxx:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

  • Such an inspirational post, I absolutely love it. You must be so proud and I'm sure the forum is super proud of you too. Congratulations on making it to the Penthouse x

  • wow! What an achievement! I bet you feel wonderful!

    Be proud!Very well done, a great inspiration to us newbies!

  • Thank you so much everyone, I am uber emotional at the moment and have just cried my eyes out at some of your posts. I am so proud of myself and so pleased that I managed to get here - I love my suite and Kat that champagne is amazing! - thank you everyone for the cute animals, you all know me so well. I am now enjoying a rather nice merlot and am about to start dancing like a loony to scissor sisters - join me if you wish ;) Oh yeah, I just noticed, I really am an odd moo - I have six teats on my avatar - normal moos only have four - cool!

    sherv.net/cm/emoticons/new-...

  • It's a very well done from me, fantastic Jen:D

  • Wow, I do love a big celebration, a whole year, so very very well done.

    I am so happy for you, you have reached your goal, fantastic:)

  • Massive MASSIVE congrats to you my lovely fellow Brizzle babber and friend so very proud of you, as the others have said you have had a tough time along the way but you have never waivered no matter what and for that reason you are an inspiration to me and I mean that, I hope you are planning to celebrate this evening you thoroughly deserve it p.s what times the party ;)

    Also, here are some guitar playing penguins for your pleasure....... Your welcome.....:D:D much love my friend xxx

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  • Many congratulations on reaching the penthouse, enjoy your evening :D:D:D

  • Jen

    You are an absolute 'Star'. Well done my love:)

    Fi x

  • jenninegs,

    I bet you never thought you would be at the doors of the Penthouse?

    But here you are and an inspiration to the rest of us.

    Well done!! :)

  • A tad early, but I am overjoyed to have reached 365 days smoke free and I can’t wait for 9pm to post! It hasn’t always been easy, but it is now and the way I feel today I can’t ever see myself ever going back.

    There are so many of you, without whom, I don’t really think I would be here today, and I am thankful to each and every one of you – most of you know who you are and you have my eternal gratitude for your wise words and just being here when I needed you, some who haven’t a clue what they have done for me but just by posting their own struggles, victories and regrettable failures, have put my own selfish mutterings into perspective and turned me into such a focused, yet sweeter smelling version of the old stinky me.

    I have just been looking back at some of my earlier posts – boy was I needy!, and in the later posts I am laughing at myself as I see how excited I became at every milestone – I clearly remember getting so excited at six weeks I posted a day early, then the afternoon I had an impossibly long crave and the intense desire to go and plant one on the boss after his usual crass insensitivity hit a nerve, and how much I really wanted to smoke when I lost one of my birds – of course the feeling didn’t last long but it really did reinforce how easy it would have been to let this all go just because the old me always used to puff away like a chimney whenever I was upset, that episode really put the want/need question into perspective for me – as much as I wanted to smoke, it would not have changed what happened or how I felt and I didn’t really need it, this meant I was able to rationalise my yearning.

    I am now turning my newly found resolve to my weight and size issues, I may not have lost a huge amount of weight over the last two months but I have lost an amazing 15.5 inches, now I’m starting to see results I am overwhelmed with a feeling of déjà vu – just like when I started noticing the benefits of not smoking made me even keener to stay quit – I’m getting the same steely focus to fight the flab – that and the rush I get at the end of every work out!

    To use a cliché, this really has been an incredible journey from addict to freedom, and as much as I never want to see those early days again, I would not change any of it, I’m glad the early days were as tough as they were, I honestly believe I may have started again if I hadn’t had to work so hard to stay smoke free, now I appreciate how life is so much better, I’m calmer, I don’t clock watch at work but am getting the job done faster as my concentration has improved so much, I love my food even more than before and am keen to try all sorts of new foods (hence the poundage lol) I buy fresh flowers every week as I love the fragrance throughout the house, I have the biggest collection of beautiful smelling shower gels you could imagine – every morning I play eeny meeny miny mo to find out which particular flower and precious gem I’m going to smell like, now I have a long leisurely shower every morning, I take my time getting ready and even have breakfast before I leave, the complete opposite of before when I would cram in three fags, two coffees and a two minute rinse under the showerhead as I knew once I got to work I had to wait for lunchtime to have a fag, then I would cram another three in whilst scoffing down and not tasting my food – now lunch is an occasion to be savoured.

    I really could go on but I see some of you have fallen asleep already, so I will just say, thank you again and I am so excited to have reached the penthouse.[/QUOTe

    Massive congratulations!!! Me toooooo x

  • Congratulations Jen and an excellent post to celebrate the year. I too remember you losing one of your birds and can relate to the battle of

    sadness = smoking. Like you said that was the old solution and it really wasn't much of a solution.

    Well done:D

  • Well done Jenn, lovely post :)

  • That's a lovely post Jen, I've really enjoyed watching your journey and I'm so pleased for you - great stuff and congratulations! x:)

  • 1 year, what a fantastic achievement, well done! What an inspiration to us newbies! :)

  • Congratulations :)

  • Great stuff, well done. I love your observations about cramming 3 fags in upon waking up, and letting everything else suffer including breakfast. I am really glad I no longer do that either.

    Keep it up. Thanks for an inspiring post.

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