So it's been 45 days since I quit. Pretty much got used to all the good things that come without smoking, especially the money since I had no health issues otherwise. I even used to train in gym and play very intensive football twice a week when I smoked, so the smoking never influenced me that badly before.
I feel like poo though. Despite all positives, here are some negatives of quitting for me.
- Somehow it was all good before when I smoked, at least I had THAT. Whatever happened, I still could sit down, have a smoke and feel better. I enjoyed the up and down aspects of the addiction. Now I feel it's just a flat line and it sucks.
- I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything. I feel more anti-social now than ever before.
- I feel less confident in myself, I stutter more than before.
- It's still major pain in the butt to work without smoking.
The only reason I am still not smoking is because I doubt I'll feel like this forever. On the other hand, it doesn't REALLY feel that much different now in compassion to the 2nd week, for example. So will it be better in 4-5 months? I doubt it.
The plan is to just push through it, but at one point (probably after 6+ months) I'll just say "screw it" if things stay the same.
Edit: Oh, and now I wake up regularly in a middle of the night to go to toilet. This rarely ever happened before. And I drink less water than before, which makes it even more strange. Anyone had that "side effect"?