Such a warm welcome and thank-you to everyone for all your very supportive comments.
Today I haven't had any real cravings as such and I am very blessed that my boyfriend is being very supportive and kind around me of late by not smoking and using his e-cig as well. He mentioned last night about not buying anymore and I am a bit concerned of late about him cause he has been coughing every time he has lit up. Last night we also went out to meet a girlfriend of mine (old school friend). She knew I had posted up on facebook about my breathe free pledge and was kind to like it and comment, saying she was thinking about it too. I couldn't believe she offered me a cigarette after we finished our chat and drinks but inside my head I kindly said no thanks but thought . . . how dare you offer me a cigarette to try and sabotage all my efforts. (People, shes not a nasty girl usually but my feelings and emotions are all over the place and think she could have been a wee bit more supportive than to do what she did.) Grrrrrr. Anyway Im not gonna dwell on that, there are more important things to think about.
Yesterday (Day 4) was a bad craving day. I really didn't know what to be doing with myself. Went to work as usual but found my concentration somewhat floundering and somewhat being light headed on more than one occasion.
Today (Day 5) I find myself sighing a lot and really feeling like I want to scream, I feel agitated by no-one doing anything on me, and angry, I mean what is going on. Then my boss comes in and tells me about a mid year bonus Im getting cause our business did so well (that certainly wasn't expected) and that still doesn't make me smile. I politely said "Thanks very much". My boyfriend then calls me to meet for lunch as he knows Im feeling low (the darling) and Im still not happy. Well I could swear too but I think I'll leave that out. This is a messy day. Today I don't want to make decisions, do anything, see anyone. I really don't want to smoke and don't feel compelled to want to either. You know what. Has anyone got any suggestions to making me feel better. To be honest I just feel yuck and gloomy.
Im not using any Nicotine replacement therapy AND Im NOT going to throw in the towel for no love nor money (Ive come this far). Is what Im feeling a panic attack but without the panic attack symptoms. I don't even feel that I wanna smoke so I cant imagine that Im actually suffering badly with withdrawal symptoms since Im not on the verge of wanting a cigarette. What What WHAT!!!!!!