I've spent 80 days since the start of the year NOT smoking, but have never made it beyond month 1 :mad:
Here I am again, and again I find motivation is low.
My quit decision was not driven by current health issues, rather by potential future health issues and every time I have smoked my "last" cigarette I have enjoyed it and said goodbye as if to an old friend I will miss dearly :confused:
My quit is one of logic, of believing I am far too intelligent to spend £1000s killing myself slowly, it is not from the heart. I hoped that if you live it long enough, you believe it, it becomes a way of life.........but today motivation is low.
It isn't craves, not physical at least, more a gnawing, niggle in my head that insists life's journey would be shorter, yes, but also that little bit better if accompanied by a ciggie
But I am stubborn! I have plonked myself back on Day One 4 times already because I will not be beaten by this, so this time I'll be stubborn a little bit earlier and break the cycle, there will be no return to day one for me.
I'm not going to smoke today, not tomorrow, not ever
I will believe my wise mother that everything comes to those who wait, and trust this is will pass
And in the meantime, since I have saved over £700 a lttle bit of frivolous shopping might be called for