Feeling really angry at the minute which I'm taking as a positive as I've motivated myself to stick on a patch and beat this mother f**ker once and for all!
So sick of this battle but it's only me who can do this, no book or app can do it, just me! So I'm digging deep this time starting with my reasons:
1) for my son, I want to live a long life and be there for him and his family. To be there for all his times of need and for all his achievements. I want to be his role model, make him proud and set a good example.
2)I don't want to get lung cancer, COPD or heart problems and suffer a slow painful death
3) I want to show love to myself by looking after myself
4) I want to look and smell nice
5) I don't want a death stick to have control over me
6)I'm tired of the breathlessness and sore chest
7) I want another child
8) my teeth will be whiter
9)we will have more money to make family memories like holidays
10) my mind will be less chaotic
11) I won't have to worry about when I can smoke next or when I can't smoke
12)my taste and smell will be better
13) I will protect those I love and everyone else from second hand smoke
14) I will no longer feel like a pathetic smelly stupid drug addict
I have written these out on paper and will carry them with me for difficult times!
I will beat this!