Ok so we are here at day 1 again I have the patch on I haven't had a fag I posted on here saying I'm ready but somehow I think I am kidding myself....
My heart isn't in it totally I am giving up because I think it's the right thing to do... for a bit of background info I have "quit" too many times to mention I always get to 7/8 weeks mark and the panic attacks and depression starts so I give in and have a fag and then feel like cr4p because I'm hopeless..
My anxiety has been really bad for the past few weeks and although it was no excuse I smoked... Mainly because I couldn't bear my husband and kids seeing me as a blubbering mess all over Xmas.. The fags helped, in my anxious addled brain they helped although we all know of course they didn't it was just that bar steward rearing his ugly head at the 7 week mark wearing me down as usual...
I have devised a plan as I think I need planning and preparation bearing in mind my quit hasn't failed yet but as nothing has changed in my mindset I'm almost certain it will again.... The plan is as follows:
04/01/2014 - start diet and exercise again to feel good about myself
23/01/2014- docs get some Prozac again, I obviously need something
12/03/2014- no smoking day start quit with patches
In the meantime I will smoke no more than 5 fags a day I am trying so hard to make this work I have tried everything and I men everything.... Patches,gum,champix,cold turkey hypnosis the lot.... I'm a failure I know that it's almost like smoking helps my well being.. Ridiculous I know..
What do you think? I know people will say it's my quit etc and I have to do what's right for me which is true but I genuinely do want advice, if it was you what would you do? Carry on with this quit or go with the plan?
I'm so sorry for rambling on and on but without wanting to sound dramatic I really am despairing of my situation I want this to work I really do
Thanks to anyone who can advise x