Not been on the forum for ages , busy with course work and dont feel able to be very helpful as i'm very unhappy with some personal issues which seem to pollute every interaction i have with people. i must say that smoking is a great leveller of undesirable mind sets. I've always used smoking to deal with being alive in a world full of difficult people including myself. I guess i've always been a social misfit when it comes to being a member of the human family and smoking always made it beararable (no pun intended there ) bear a rabble) now that i dont smoke i'm just dumbstruck and want to retreat away from the christmas insistence on being with family ..uuugh. i am no longer prepared to be the family scapegoat so i guess im redundant. I could just sit through it in a cloud of smoke and lose my quit , that way the families precious feelings and pretence would be safe...... i think ive lost the plot now....... still quit. hate xmas. bah humbug... families are totally over-rated anyway.
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