Have I been walking a tight rope or what this week! So im 7 weeks quit, 5 weeks nearly with no nicotine, I was fine first 3 weeks of that and bam for two weeks its been a near constant daily thought of 'smoke, smoke,smoke smoke etc' and it was driving me crazy! I would lose hours in deep contemplation about wether i should lite up or not!
My face covered in spots, me stressing, looking swollen...it was not a great time for me tbh. BUT!! as much as i wanted a fag (wont lie) I really didnt want to go shop, pay £8 to then be hooked and have to wake up the next day looking like Golem out of lord of the rings! I dont want that in my life anymore, it is pure slavery! I didnt want to fail anymore either, im tired of being like 'yeah..i couldnt do it...puff puff'.
I looked at my lovely glowing hands, with my pink nails, which are actually growing and are strong (never had nice nails...ever!) and I know it sounds very unimportant, but i thought...wow money cant buy that...thats pure health right there! and the cravings have been gone since yesterday.
There really is nothing to lose except an old memory which was formed in the mind of a drug addict, its as simple as that. Its a white stick end of day, how much fun can you have with a stick?
Anyways I wanted to share abit of a milestone for me, getting out of a horrible hole! xxxx