Wow what a week!

Have I been walking a tight rope or what this week! So im 7 weeks quit, 5 weeks nearly with no nicotine, I was fine first 3 weeks of that and bam for two weeks its been a near constant daily thought of 'smoke, smoke,smoke smoke etc' and it was driving me crazy! I would lose hours in deep contemplation about wether i should lite up or not!

My face covered in spots, me stressing, looking swollen...it was not a great time for me tbh. BUT!! as much as i wanted a fag (wont lie) I really didnt want to go shop, pay £8 to then be hooked and have to wake up the next day looking like Golem out of lord of the rings! I dont want that in my life anymore, it is pure slavery! I didnt want to fail anymore either, im tired of being like 'yeah..i couldnt do it...puff puff'.

I looked at my lovely glowing hands, with my pink nails, which are actually growing and are strong (never had nice nails...ever!) and I know it sounds very unimportant, but i thought...wow money cant buy that...thats pure health right there! and the cravings have been gone since yesterday.

There really is nothing to lose except an old memory which was formed in the mind of a drug addict, its as simple as that. Its a white stick end of day, how much fun can you have with a stick?

Anyways I wanted to share abit of a milestone for me, getting out of a horrible hole! xxxx

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  • My face covered in spots, me stressing, looking swollen...it was not a great time for me tbh. BUT!! as much as i wanted a fag (wont lie) I really didnt want to go shop, pay £8 to then be hooked and have to wake up the next day looking like Golem out of lord of the rings! I dont want that in my life anymore, it is pure slavery! I didnt want to fail anymore either, im tired of being like 'yeah..i couldnt do it...puff puff

    Agree with the above my face is bloated I've bumped on loads of weight and my face is covered in spots..... I too am sick of failing and keep TRYING to give up, it's boring me now so god knows what family and friends feel about it.... I can't think of anything and I talk constantly about it, hence this forum being a godsend....

    One of my friends said to me " life's too short to feel like c*ap just have a fag if u want one, you can't do it, I have have never met someone who struggles to give up and who gets so angry as you" and do u know what, I thought no u wouldn.'t get it, cos ur weak... Not like me and my fellow quitters on this forum... We are strong we're doing it and it's the absolute best gift we can give to ourselves...

    You are doing brilliantly, we all are on this forum, go us!!! :)))

  • Nikki you are doing brilliantly, well done to you! :)

    I'm glad the spots have just about gone and that your hands and nails are looking good.....my skin looks so much better too, hands and face. These things are important and they do matter. I know spots and wrinkled skin aren't potentially fatal diseases like cancer, but how we look is important to us. So enjoy being the new Nikki who is emerging and be proud of yourself........you've achieved this through sheer determination and it is a wonderful thing to be free and healthy! :)

    Val

    xxx

  • I can have a lot of fun with a stick!

    - Pretending to be a gun at cowboys and Indians

    - a samurai sword

    - Gandalf's staff

    - a crap fishing rod

    - etc:D

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