7.30pm Dec 3rd 2012 is etched on my brain forever - I thought “Quit, you’ve been meaning to for ages so give it a go. Billions of fellow humans don’t need it so neither do you mate, just be one of them instead. What’s the worst that can happen? Has anyone ever actually died from quitting smoking? How hard can it be?” My plan was simple - bin the pack, and not buy any more the next day - creative or what?
I tried so hard early doors to just be ‘normal’ but the first month was horrid - I was a proper werewolf, a dizzy, grumpy insomniac. In fact this is how addled I was - every morning I used to look in the mirror and resolve to beat a plant. Me against a bunch of leaves, that’s what I’d turned my quit into. Amazing this malarkey, who’d do that for heaven’s sake!
Before Christmas I kept going through abject fear - for the first time I found the threat of a smokers death terrifying and literally scared myself into staying quit. :eek: I survived on abject defiance, a point blank refusal to be beaten (yes…by leaves, I know, right!?) and the blind faith that it would ‘all be worth it in the end’. And it really is. I made quitting the single most important thing, and convinced myself that failure was simply not an option.
Over Christmas I found myself searching the interconnected web for the benefits of quitting just to keep my motivation up, and found two important things:
1. This forum - what a font of knowledge and support! I’ve loved your advice and brilliant company on this journey so far everyone! As Kat said weeks back, if a collection of people like this support each other to quit smoking, and smoking can kill, ergo you/we can truly be classed as lifesavers. How flippin’ brilliant is that?
2. Some great articles as a result, including the one I’ve now linked to through my signature that helped me to properly understand my addiction. Sites like these are signposted all over this forum if you look. The NRT/study bit of it is a little dry but the rest makes me smile, and while belittling a plant helped for a while the education to understand and control my addiction made a massive difference.
So if you‘re still just thinking about quitting, then seek out people to support and encourage you instead of going it alone. You’ve already done it of course, you’re here! Great stuff!! Write down your reasons, hopes and dreams and check back regularly, prep for what happens in the tough early days, educate yourself about nicotine addiction. Know the immediate and on-going improvements to your body function and use these as motivation to continue with your quit come what may.
And absolutely have self-belief and pride – you are fantastic, and really can do it, you must believe that! I quit over ten years after I realised I should, idiot - aaargh! So if you’re ready and your head’s in the game, then good luck with your wonderful decision to stop burning foliage. Eat cake instead…much nicer…
Oh, I’ve been rambling again? Well that’s enough of that gubbins then, for in my battle that is Man v Plant, today Man wins! Haha, come on the Humans!
I still often think about what it would be like, after 25 years of doing it who wouldn’t? But now I’m busy attending to life, not just experiencing it between smokes. For a whole year I’ve chosen NOT to smoke, NOT to look at life through a blue haze, and to just keep on kicking the pants of that godforsaken pathetic imp that tells you it’s ok to have “just one” – it’s really not. I’m a former smoker that must always obey the Law of Addiction and Never Take Another Puff.
I am really quite chuffed, permission to cross the threshold of the Penthouse and join the party please??