I just had to come on today and tell you that come tomorrow it will be 12 months since I last put a cigarette to my lips.
Those of you who know me from the past will remember that I found quitting so hard. Even though I was desperate to clean my act up and stop smoking I always seemed to mess up.
It took me a while to get my head into action and realise where I was going wrong. After all, all I seemed to be getting from smoking was a nasty cough and a guilt trip and to make matters worse I was choosing to pay for it. It was time to stop my deluded way of thinking that I couldn't enjoy life properly unless I had the security of a packet of fags within reach at all times. I stopped looking for excuses to keep smoking.
It was a year ago today when I finally came to my senses and started to just get on with it properly. I told myself that of course I could do it.
I read a lot of the success stories on here and it was noticeable that all of the successful quitters had adopted a positive and common sense approach to their quit right from the start. They made their decision to quit and for them failure just wasn't going to get in the way.
Well I stopped looking at quitting as some sort of self inflicted punishment, I stopped whining to myself about how hard done by I was because of it and I stopped feeling sorry for myself. As each day passed it slowly began to dawn on me that I didn't actually want or need smoking in my life and this was such a good feeling. Even the odd craving became easy to dismiss and soon I found myself not even having to think about my quit. I just carried on and here I am now one year later and so happy to be sharing this with you.
I never thought I would be able to stop smoking and now it seems unbelievable that I allowed myself to smoke for so long.
Smoking is a strange thing though and even now there can still be the rare odd occasion when thoughts of it just pop into my mind, usually completely out of the blue. These thoughts are few and fleeting and I can honestly say that I am not tempted by them at all. In fact I would say that just the opposite is true, the last thing I would want to do now is start smoking again. I am free at last!
I've had such a lot of support from my friends on here who never judged or gave up on me and I truly cannot thank them enough.
I don't want to sound as if I'm blowing my own trumpet but I feel so happy that I've come this far. I see smoking for what it is now and I won't let it be part of my life any more. I love being able to say "I don't smoke".
To those of you who are still on your quit journey my advice has to be 'Never give up on giving up'. You can do it and when you do I can promise you that you'll be so glad you did. You will get there in the end if you really want to.
Good luck and best wishes