I NEED to do this again. Things are starting to calm down and I have to STOP. Its only been a little over a week now, so I should be good. I keep seeing the we quit date of March, but I definitely cannot wait that long. I have it in me mentally and emtionally as I proved to myself over the past 8 months that I don't NEED the cigarettes in my life. If I could do this Cold Turkey, I can suffer and do it again. I sat here and pondered why, but its not about why, we ALL know its a daily struggle sometimes. Its like an alcoholic who stops drinking. I'm sure they think about drinking daily. I can't keep beating myself up. What's done is done.
I WILL conquer this. I WILL defeat evil. I WILL continue to be devoted to live a healthier life. Thank you for ALL of your support in my set back. I will be back on the band wagon before you know it. The sooner the better.