Ok day four, I have been telling myself I was doing very well for the last few days no huge major melt downs, no massive craves that I couldn't think through, ( or eat through) .
This evening however holy hell, I have been hit by so many different craves coming from so many different angles. I twice had that sneaky idea your doing great just have a smoke now to SETTLE yourself and you can just pick up where you left off.
This is my own brain sabotaging me, now if you were in my kitchen and heard me fighting with myself you would call the men in the white coats.
Now the constant craves have developed into feeling irritated. My husband god love him had a few pints after work, and he is all jolly and is being funny while he isn't actually funny if you know what I mean. I so want to either strangle him or smoke. I hope he remains safe tonight, I also hope I can get through this weekend, not only that but to top it all I feel FAT, and I keep snaking on rubbish. ( I know carrot sticks etc, but I hate carrot sticks and healthy foods, I feel punished enough without those things)
Ok biddy, rant over, keep smiling, breathe, and don't smoke.