Well its been 11 months since Ive logged onto this site. I had a stumble, I fell. I stumbled again, I fell and in the end I thought stuff it Im never going to be able to stop.
Well here I am again, back on the wagon and will be on my 7th day as of midnight. I don't know what. if anything, will be different this time.
When I have stopped before I have felt healthy, planned my quit day, attended smoking clinics. This time I just thought Im going to stop this tomorrow and I did. Im in the depressed part of my cycle too which makes it even more amazing to me.
How long will it last this time? I have no idea. All I do know is that its going to be one day at a time. If I fall, then I fall. I wont beat myself up about it. All I will be able to do is climb on the wagon again. Until then Im going to enjoy the fact that today I didn't smoke.
Quick wave to anyone who was here with me before xxx
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Many people have said to me that you can stop only if you really want to. I always thought I wanted to in the past.
What I wanted really was to stop spending money on them, to stop coughing all the time, to stop going outside in the wind and rain to have one. What I didn't really want to do was stop smoking in order to achieve all the above.
I think I now understand what these people meant.
Yes I have copd and need to stop
Yes it costs me as much as my petrol bill and I don't want to spend over £300 a month on petrol or cigs
Yes I wont have to standout in the wind and rain to feed an addiction.
At the end of the day none of these things matter unless I want to stop and it appears that this time I do xxxx
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