Bad Few Days

I'm not ashamed to admit I have had a few bad days, I was thinking this morning god I could have a fag. I'm ten weeks on Friday and really proud of that, I won't have a fag but with everything that's going on at the minute today I just thought its easier to smoke. Then I wanted to poke myself in the eye for being so stupid because I know it won't make my brother in law any better and it won't make me feel better.

So I decided to remind myself reading all my posts why I stopped and how hard those first few days were! Like a light switch coming on I remembered that horrific first day, crying, shaking, feeling sick, panic attacks and screaming in to the carpet! Do I want a fag????? Née chance like, tabs can do one as I don't smoke and they crap! :)

Ps this swapping patches up and down like nurse told me has not gone well for me, so ill finish this week on 14 and use the lower ones from this weekend. :eek::eek:

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  • I really dont know where these craves come from sometimes, like i dont understand how you can have a great day 8 than a crap day 103 (for example) it just doesnt make sense!

    Sorry to hear your going through a bad time. Maybe it is this trigger of a stressful time, its all those first times i guess. first drink, first holiday, first family situation, first etc etc.

    The good thing is every time you cope and dont reach for those cigs, your body remembers and after a while it gives up looking for cigs to solve it and next time a similar situation happens it wont be as bad, if anthing at all crave wise!

    Keep strong and remember what you have achieved! your stronger than those fags thats for sure xx

  • I am so sorry things are bad for you right now, but sooooo well done for resisting temptation, you are stronger than the addiction, always remember that, you have shown how strong you are by getting so far and not wanting to go back to that dark place of being overwhelmed by the cravings. And remember, all the crap stuff that happens in life would still happen if you smoked, only that you would stink and be skint whilst dealing with the turmoil.

  • You can do it

    Don't allow the Nicodemon to get into your head, he will always look for times of and weakness and then pounce! He misses you, he want's to make you ill and eventually kill you! How can he do that if you done smoke? O well if you don't smoke now, he will move on to the next idiot.

  • Thanks everyone after three rubbish days I feel fine again, I do think I have a lot going on but I won't smoke don't worry. But I do think this swapping about with patches has not helped me one bit, it was making me up and down I didn't know where I was at. Would rather have a bit if a crap day Saturday and Sunday getting used to lower one and carry on lower so that's what I'm doing.

    Your right reading back over my posts does help, no way I want to be back at day 1 ever again it was horrific. Feeling much better so thank you all :)

  • So glad to hear your feeling better again, and well done for getting through and resisiting the urge!

  • Glad to hear you're feeling better. The cravings do seem to happen at random times but for me it was always a situation to encounter for the first time as a non smoker which took about a year when you think about it logically :confused:

    They do get easier and less and less - promise :D:D

  • Thanks everyone after three rubbish days I feel fine again, I do think I have a lot going on but I won't smoke don't worry. But I do think this swapping about with patches has not helped me one bit, it was making me up and down I didn't know where I was at. Would rather have a bit if a crap day Saturday and Sunday getting used to lower one and carry on lower so that's what I'm doing.

    Your right reading back over my posts does help, no way I want to be back at day 1 ever again it was horrific. Feeling much better so thank you all :)

    I'm so glad you've got through it hun, it's horrible but you beat it :D

    You've made real progress and the demon is that bit weaker!!

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