Hey, very happy to be on day 10 good stuff.
Im using my spray probably more than i should today. Im trying dresses on for saturday and my belly has grown quite a bit lol but i dont weigh anymore which is odd. anyways this made me miss smoking. Some how i assiciate smoking with being thin.
Its stupid because my skin looks better and hair and i smell nice now so i actually look better physically, but for some reason i keep thinking ill look better if i smoke?? crazy! Ultimately its not as if i have been ultra lean as a smoker and now ive jumped 2 sizes but this is proberly the only thing pulling me back to smoke. and for one second in my head it made sense to start it up again lol instantly followed by your nutts just have a spray woman.
Im upset with the amount ive been using my spray as well as i feel like im taking step backwards with the nicotine addiction, but out of the fags and that i would rather have the spray, and it feels like im having best of both worlds, no real suffering and not smoking. but i think this is also making it easier for my justify smoking, which is why i wanted to do cold turkey in first place! :mad:
god. what a pickle. sorry for rant just need to get it out there :rolleyes: