Looking at this forum kind of makes me feel ashamed and pretty angry at myself too since the last time I was here I was already on day 31 (in 2011) and going through nightmare withdrawals and said I would never smoke again.. but here I am 2yrs later and trying again I did the typical one every now and again (why? Heck knows) then ended up dating someone who smoked and bang.. that was it.. hooked again since Nov last year... It felt like I had regained part of my identity in a sense, but over the last month or so I was just gutted that this addiction had once again gained control over me. I realised it when I went to pick a friend up from the airport. I arrived 2hrs early (well, you never know with the M25) with no ciggies and decided I would buy some.....£6 for 10! :eek: but the craving was there so I had to buy them! That was the tipping edge for me realising that nicotine was once again controlling me rather than me controlling IT! So decided last Sunday that was it.. NO MORE! I'm now on Day 6, cravings are still horrible and the worst thing is I am trying to do an assignment for my OU course whilst struggling with cravings as well! Its hard to keep saying NO, but I feel the sense of victory and a sigh of relief everytime I see the back of a craving!
I have noticed that everytime a craving comes and I refuse to give in, I get a brief bad head too! Just one of the withdrawals kicking in!
Heres to the journey!