Having a Bad Day

Today I am having a bad day, all I can think is that i would love a fag! Cant believe i have wrote them words. Been doing so well, but i cant put my finger on the reason why, its not the smell, taste, smelly hair and clothes, i dont miss any of that like. Cant even think now as i type a reason what i love/like about fags because there is nothing about them that is nice. The only thing i can hand on heart say is that today i miss the comfort. I wont go to the shop and get any, i wont even smoke but why did I ever start? Knowing what i know now, i would never have had that first fag!

I just feel in a whirl, anxious, down, bit crap and to be honest i think im a little depressed. I have never not been at work apart from holidays, and im finding this being poorly crack boring. I miss work, I miss my friends and I miss the crack with the lads on site every day.

As I have said before I take these days or few hours badly as i dont get cravings much, i know from these past five weeks that it will pass but i still feel like i hate the world today!:mad:

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  • Hiya Angela :)

    Sorry you're feeling rubbish, but it will get better!!

    Was in a right state yesterday and I can tell you that today I'm so glad not to have caved in and smoked. That will be you very soon :)

    For now, do anything nice for yourself - whatever you feel like except smoking!!

    SOmething to keep your fingers busy as well as your brain would do a good job, and no ciggies!!

  • Hi Gemma Lou

    Thanks for reply, I wont have one but I just hate myself for feeling like this as I say to myself its easier to smoke than feel like crap like this, then I fight with myself in my head because I dont want to smoke. I honestly today need some comfort I think and I used to get so much comfort from them and food to be honest. Its not as bad now, I feel a lot more lighter in my chest and not like the weight of the world as it did an hour or so ago.

    After all this time of stopping yourself do you still really get bad days? My friend has been stopped five years and she says she still has that odd thought like on the beach on holiday reading with a drink, oh I could have a fag. But she says nothing more than that for her now. She even came outside with me once on a night out so I was not on my own having a fag. She is some girl I would have made me stand on my own lol x x:)

  • Hi Gemma Lou

    Thanks for reply, I wont have one but I just hate myself for feeling like this as I say to myself its easier to smoke than feel like crap like this, then I fight with myself in my head because I dont want to smoke. I honestly today need some comfort I think and I used to get so much comfort from them and food to be honest. Its not as bad now, I feel a lot more lighter in my chest and not like the weight of the world as it did an hour or so ago.

    That's good it's geting better :)

    You will find that now and then, but it's not a regular thing by a long way - if you think about it we all smoked for years, came to depend on them like a crutch almost, and it's going to take a bit of time to get it into your subconscious that smoking is bad, not nice. And it is, it's stinky, expensive, makes you ill and so on - nothing positive about it!!

    After all this time of stopping yourself do you still really get bad days? My friend has been stopped five years and she says she still has that odd thought like on the beach on holiday reading with a drink, oh I could have a fag. But she says nothing more than that for her now. She even came outside with me once on a night out so I was not on my own having a fag. She is some girl I would have made me stand on my own lol x x:)

    I do, but nothing like I did early on in my quit.

    Have been feeling down lately, and wound up yesterday so that's why - more to do with me than my quit!!

    It's still in the "first time doing... since" stage for me too, so although I've been quit for 8 months there's still new triggers to overcome.

    Some of my ex-smoker friends used to do that too, never seemed to bother them at all :) x

  • Sorry to hear that you are having a tough time at the moment. It will pass though and you will have made it past another hurdle and be stronger as a result.

    Hang in there!

    Sarah

  • Thank you everyone, it's passed!!!!! Thank the lord, I need to get it into my head once it starts to man up and as I know it will pass in a few hours. I'm so lucky that I am not like some people who suffer every day with feelings like this.

    Max you are right iv managed to block put that part I smoked Out i think it's why I get on so well, but it's that nasty little thought that sometimes you can't shake, but ill take your advice for next time. :)

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