Today I am having a bad day, all I can think is that i would love a fag! Cant believe i have wrote them words. Been doing so well, but i cant put my finger on the reason why, its not the smell, taste, smelly hair and clothes, i dont miss any of that like. Cant even think now as i type a reason what i love/like about fags because there is nothing about them that is nice. The only thing i can hand on heart say is that today i miss the comfort. I wont go to the shop and get any, i wont even smoke but why did I ever start? Knowing what i know now, i would never have had that first fag!
I just feel in a whirl, anxious, down, bit crap and to be honest i think im a little depressed. I have never not been at work apart from holidays, and im finding this being poorly crack boring. I miss work, I miss my friends and I miss the crack with the lads on site every day.
As I have said before I take these days or few hours badly as i dont get cravings much, i know from these past five weeks that it will pass but i still feel like i hate the world today!:mad: