As I have been struggling so much, I decided to write a thread of my reasons so I can come and see it in times of difficulty.
1. I need the job I was offered and I need to pass the urine test!
2. I do not want my son thinking smoking is ok
3. My son hates it, and I do not want him judging me
4. I want to smell nice, for my car to smell nice and my apartment
5. I want my skin to improve, I am not getting any younger!
6. As a nurse I should set an example
7. I am going to be working 12 hour shifts - this will be so much easier if I am not a smoker on a non-smoking campus
8. I hate smoking, it makes me feel like a less capable and weaker person
As I think of more I will update.